Saturday, July 31, 2010

to love.

ngahaha I have found this... alinkalinkalinkaclickablelink;)

meaning I can finally show off my talent.. somehow XP prasan. macam la ade talent sngt.

so yea if you wander around this forum sight, you see all my condo members.. so far I've noticed THREE have registered - Me, Caelin and Dyan - but I'm not sure if anyone else registered so yea :) Im'a check that later.

anyways. I like the way story started but somehow I didn't go straight to "meeting people" as the forum title says. mostly cuz you know, everything has a start and an end.
so I'm guessing Dyan doesn't have an end xP haha. well, he's not my band mate anyway.


need somebody.

so I wanna blog instead of study because when mom asks "Why didn't you study?" I wanna answer "cuz I was blogging. and that's what I wanna do. not study." what an easy way to die faster.

so this morning, I went to Masjid Bulat for that Majlis Amal thing. it was okay. I like the cinnamon rolls and ice blended. that was nice. oh yea I went there as a Pandu Puteri (because teacher said we could get certificates) and I had to go for duty at our stall, which is a jumble sale really. it was quite fun, looking at all the old clothes. they looked so 80's. in the end we found out it was all this Datin from the headquarters of Girl Guides and she said that we could get National level certs because she's involved and we were like "WHOA" ... it's quite impressive you know, national. especially on a college application. >)

so I went back home quite early - supposed to end at 3 but i went home at 1.45 - and got ready for Abang Azi's kenduri. when we (Mak, Bakmal and I. abang and Kak Ain went back to Bentong, dad had something.) arrived at 4.40, turns out it was already finished. we thought it was after Asar. turns out it's BEFORE Asar =,="so that was kinda weird. there were quite an amount of foreigners there. They were Abang Azi's students. we sat inside for a while then later decided to eat something. we ate cabonara. then later mom ate some rice. I think Bakmal ate rice before we came out. then by the time the kebabs were done (they weren't so good), Kak Bah and Aunty Maz had arrived.

Kak Bah's son, Asyraf HAS to be the cutest, the most handsomest boy I've ever met. I feel like pulling his cheeks every time I see him. I think he's 7 or 8 now, I can't remember. oh such a cute smile that could pull a girl's heart out X3 lol.

then around 6 we went for Concorde. on the way mom was like "Atas ni pegi rumah Bazil." my heart felt like a knife just chipped a part of it off. you had to mention it. I totally ignored the comment. then I started thinking bout SSP and schools and people... blergh. totally forgotten when we arrived at Concorde.

we prayed and showered at Concorde, then we went back home. Ayah went to dinner after he walked us out of the hotel. then we went home.

that's when my stomach started to hurt :'( I'M HUNGRY.




The Sweet Sound of Rock.

Onyx Sorbet.


- A band created for the group "House of Musician" *link* on Deviantart. Copyrighted by LynN8596 and MizutoraNoSuigyoku. -

Raine's the vocalist, and Sui's the drummer, btw. Fuyoo, dramatic giler XP

and Eva, if you're reading and haven't found out, there's a forum for House of Musicians now. check out your DA.


Friday, July 30, 2010

if you were tagged.

haha, I was stalking people's pix as usual, and suddenly I saw this photo that had 50+ comments. I've seen more, of course, but out of curiosity I read the whole thing. Turned out to be quite entertaining.

    • Jen Li Thx, Jia Yi, but u might wanna consider tagging other peeps coz I feel kinda lonely.XD
    • Zaza Azahar I AM NOT THE GEEK!
    • Loo Jia Yi oh yes ur
    • Zaza Azahar NO I AM NOT! meanie! ahahahah!
    • Jen Li OMG! You also think Damia is sexay? LOLs!!
    • Loo Jia Yi wei hu else in d class more sexy than her?
    • Jen Li SHOBA!
    • Loo Jia Yi ‎................*akward silence*
    • Zaza Azahar damia isn't sexy. She is the pretty one, hahahahaha!
    • Heng Yen Fern wth.. why am i thne LOST ONE?!??!
    • Loo Jia Yi bcuz u r always blur
    • Zaza Azahar HAHAHAHAHA!
    • Loo Jia Yi same 2 u geek
    • Sak Wye Mei lost one, u shud learn to be more "unlost"
    • SieMone Ng me leh!!!!
    • Loo Jia Yi wait lar
      d photo dun wanna cum in
    • Sak Wye Mei me too.
    • Loo Jia Yi WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    • Sak Wye Mei rmb to tag me.
    • Loo Jia Yi yea i will
    • Sak Wye Mei gud
    • Zaza Azahar HEH! ONCE AGAIN, I'm not a geek! T.T
    • Sak Wye Mei Since Jia Yi is now offline, i shall replace her.
    • Sak Wye Mei Heh! ONCE AGAIN, U are a geek!
    • Sak Wye Mei oops, 4got the smiley... =P
    • Zaza Azahar aiyaaa... T.T
    • Sak Wye Mei ‎^.^
    • Loo Jia Yi thx a lot wye mei
    • Sak Wye Mei ur welcome
    • Sak Wye Mei the gamer!!!
    • Loo Jia Yi u r welcum
    • Sak Wye Mei wad does it means? does it means i lyk to play games?
      i really do lyk playing games!
    • Sak Wye Mei thx ^^ 4got to type that
    • Loo Jia Yi yala it mean u lyk 2 play games
    • Leong Ka Yan sweet
    • Ratzz Sangeetha who am i
    • Sak Wye Mei u r Sangeetha.
    • Loo Jia Yi haha sangeetha u r d 1 tat is always up 2 no gud
    • Loo Jia Yi thx ka yan
    • Yap Li Qin ya d innocent....not
    • Loo Jia Yi yea rite
    • Zaza Azahar aiyaa! don't spam la! so many notifications! XD haahhaahahahah, and im not the GEEK one. :P
    • Loo Jia Yi yes u r the GEEEEEEEEEEK
    • Sak Wye Mei keep spamming.
    • Sak Wye Mei zaza is the geek.
    • Jen Li you guys are CRAZY!
    • Jen Li Im getting 150 e-mails a day, and a hundred of them are from facebook, and about 20 of it are from this post!
    • Zaza Azahar YA LAA! you guys! *sorry*
    • Loo Jia Yi hei hei not my fault everybody wanna keep commenting on my photo
    • Zaza Azahar I know laa, tht this photo is soooo shhpechhial. Eh, sorry. :P
    • Loo Jia Yi yea sure 4 a geek
    • Jen Li Im not finished !BUT I LIKE IT! muahahahha..LOL XD *continuing the previos post I posted*
    • Loo Jia Yi do pics like this get SOOOO many comments????
    • Sak Wye Mei not reli...
    • Sak Wye Mei can't u see it happening here?
    • Loo Jia Yi ‎55 looks a lot 2 mi
    • Sak Wye Mei nah, I've seen more~
    • Zaza Azahar stop it la. the cmmnts. ERGH.
    • Loo Jia Yi ahhh shut up u geek

LOL.editing this was so tiring. and it's still retarded. but the comments r kinda funny. especially the Sangeetha one that really got me laughing.

okies gudnite~!

when the world crashes.

"maybe you just haven't tried everything yet. don't worry, talent will come."

you're talented. trust me.

so I told Laila. and she said it was normal T T AGAIN another person who finds it normal! well, at least it didn't affect our friendship or anything.

man I'm sleepy. downloading Avatar even though exam's next week. no worries. when I finish downloading this, I'll continue with the first chapter in book 2, cuz I really wanna see Toph already T_T lol. btw the one I'm downloading now is chapter 7 book 1. I dunno why but I haven't been editing vids a lot lately. maybe I'll continue after end year exam. then I have less things to think about.


Thursday, July 29, 2010

till I touch the sky.

"I want someone to love me for who I am."

so today was quite fun. it started during Geo when Anesha and I were discussing the answers for the revision, and we suddenly had a giggling fit. it continued until Sejarah, and we had revision again. after a while, Xueh Wei and Laila approached our table. so did Santra.

"What's number 16 ah?"
".. we're still at 10!!!"

after a while...

"This is worse then our own place!!!"

XP we didn't ASK you to come here!! we were having a private conversation anyway. haish.

anesha : I think you're really serious about this.
me : I told you, it's more serious than you think.
laila : ape ni??
me : laila laila, tadi mase you ambik your exercise book from me, muke I macam pelik tak?
laila : hah.. pelik sket la..
anesha : WHAT WHAT?!
me : *repeats*
anesha : hah?! SERIOUSLY?!
laila : KENAPE KENAPE?!?!

I know this is totally hanging, but who knows knows la.
actually only anesha knows the situation.
but other people knows sumthin t-- OKAY LARI TOPIK.

haha sorry Laila I can't tell you.. I'm not ready to tell you.. I'm not ready to see your reaction and drop my water face (:P). why did I tell Anesha and Lea? Anesha.. well, there's personal reasons for it. and I trusted Lea. and I still do. But mostly, the reason I told them was because I tak tahan and I couldn't stand it alone. I needed someone who I can always discuss about this with. although neither of them really likes to discuss about this, but at least I have someone I can talk bout this with.

anyway, back to the day. during English we did that food thingy and it was really fun :D the smell of tortillas are still on my hand! :D so goood.. :9 we also had marshmallows with chocolate! :D some other group did a sandwich, one made a cocktail thingy? something but it was really sweet and awesome :9 Lea and Laila's group did Tuna Apples (sliced apples in tuna = =") Potato Salad (YUMM :D) and tuna sandwich. didn't get to taste that but I bet it was just a normal tuna sandwich. a group did Fruit Kebabs with choco sauce! :D I didn't have lunch. that was my lunch :9

Jap had combined classes.Maryam couldn't stop with the s** thingy when we were on the topic hot spring (onkansen or sumthin like dat I can't remember =_="). Sabsab can't stop "hoshii"ing Qian Rui and Eva (want) and.. Qian Rui knows.

I guess I wanted to make her comfortable but maybe I've mistaken. maybe she DIDN'T lie. it was a big risk. but never mind. a secret's a secret.hopefully someone as smart as her understands the concept "PRIVATE" and "CONFIDENTIAL" even when it's not said. it's like, the unspoken rule of secrets. you don't have to say "KEEP THIS A SECRET".

but then again. if you tell someone not really close. you don't risk losing a friendship because of dropping your water face (if you're STILL wondering what this is, AIR MUKA.).


p.s, Dear God, even if you had to do that to me... you had to give me an after shock, didn't you? 
I guess it's my fault anyway, making a sin and still not blaming myself. but I DIDN'T ask for it. it CAME.

Didn't it?

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

can't see the pain.

"you're better than I thought you'd be."
very wrong, Axel.. very wrong.

so interesting thing during PJK.. I know Ms. Foo said we don't have to tell the world but... it was pretty dramatic.

we were playing netball and I was in tha zone. (although I'm not that good anyway) I passed the ball to Prii and she caught it. she passed it to someone at our end of the goal. people gathered there while I panted behind, not wanting to make the crowd bigger. suddenly...


the sound of glass shattering froze everyone. we stared at the picture frames by the shoe rack of the orchestra room. i looked around to see if any of the other classes having PJK now saw. none in sight.

no one did anything for ten whole seconds. Xueh Wei came out of the crowd and came to me.

"I was not there I was not there I was not there..."

gomenasai orchestra.. but it was just ONE frame :D and it was by ACCIDENT :D and we're PAYING BACK :D

so after school we had Pandu Puteri. we had trial-AGM which is basically we picked a couple of people for some stuff and the next meeting, they're gonna see if the chosen ones are good enough to take that post :3 I got Head of Notice Board, which doesn't need all this, so I'm kinda happy :D

Nadhrah and Xueh Wei on the other hand, were chosen as President. and have to conduct the next meeting.

I think they're good enough though :)

Ika got Secretary, so she has to write reports bout meetings and stuff which I think sucks =_=" and I don't wanna handle money. not that I don't love money, I've become treasurer twice now in my life time (which I've actually handled money, other than that were total failure Treasurers =_=") but you know. Issues. so I think Shahira and a junior got it? not sure. Khairina got Head of Photography, Adriana got Head of Games (how fun :D) and Chloe got Form3 representative.

Head of Notice Board seems fun. I don't really have to know much, I just have decorate the board and update about meetings :) so yea. I'll have to ask our supervising teacher if we should hold a meeting, then ask the presidents if there's gonna be meeting (which should be easy later, since they're in my form ;) ) then update before Tuesday :3

man I haven't started studying yet.. August test next week... but it's just AUGUST test, right? my mom doesn't even know it's next week, if not she'd be so pissed =__=" for end year exam, i SO have to start studying like, a month and a half before it starts =,=" if not I could go down to other classes T_T I WANNA STAY IN TOP 4 CLASS... if not I could die of embarrassment and low-self-confidence.

okay nighties :3 esok nak puasa.. should sleep now..


my two fav Avatar characters - Toph and Zuko :3

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

comme un rayon de lune.

"defying gravity."


Eva and this junior Amanda Lau was joking bout something I don't get that involves hands gestures. and I was like

"... that seems so wrong. like you're turned on or something."
Eva : ..whut?!
Amanda :ew..
Eva : what are you talking about?! are you saying I'm turning you on?! (<--- too clean. doesn't get the term "turned on.")
Amanda : OMG EW.
Eva : *does the hand gesture again*
Amanda: stop it. just.. stop it.
Me: LOL!!!

I'm so sorry I dirtified a junior T__T

just before recess ends. in class.

Someone I can't remember who : can someone give this to Anesha? *shows aluminum can*
Me : *remembers something* OMG SHITTT *throws newly-bought chinese newspaper (which I bought randomly bcuz Qian Rui said there's SuJu inside. turns out no single picture of KyuHyun. Qian Rui : NO REFUNDS! evill...) to the floor* *runs to canteen*

at canteen.

Divyia : why? you wanna buy this? *shows off her extra can*
Me : *steals can* *pant pant*
Divyia : *laughs her typical laugh, which is NOT hahaha. more like hihihi.*
Me : CAN I HUG YOU?! *hugs*
Divyia : hihihi, okay, just say "Justin Bieber loves Divyia"
Me: e__e just-- justi-- justin bieb-- *pant, pant*
Divyia : hihihi, it's okay, take your time.
Me : Juhstin Biehber Luhves Dhivyah... *pant pant*
Dvyia : hihihi okay...
Me : thank you... *runs back to class*

in class.

Me : Divyia, Justin Bieber loves you~!
Divyia : hihihi, so sweet!


Monday, July 26, 2010

baby let me love you now.

link to comic.

I was debating at school whether this comic was funny or not to see if it's worth to be posted in DA T_T sigh. Xueh Wei didn't find it funny. :'( but NEVER MIND. a bunch of OTHER people found it funny (although Sabsab said it was lame, ouch) but still. never mind.

ngeh. fasted today. didn't go for choir because I knew I wasn't needed. I'm not going for Subang Parade competition. because I can't, not cuz I don't want to.


Sunday, July 25, 2010

mutiara damansara.

ok quick posty.

sono kyori de.
gaargh okay I don't exactly have anything important to say so BYE~!

to eva : cough cough cough cough cough
to joy : no time no chat. when u find sumthing to talk bout, i always hve credit :)
to everyone else : do not lie to anyone and especially not to yourself. enjoy life. good luck with it. be happy.


Friday, July 23, 2010

forgive and forget system.

people have not been updating their blogs recently. that is not a good thing. especially then ones that I want their blog updated. well, maybe nothing interesting in their lives had happened. and I, stupidly sitting here, am updating my blog everyday no matter what happens. mostly because I want to update on everything. even when no one's reading.

I'm locking my door shut.

it's sad to hear the people you love fight. especially when they're barely around. once in a while you come back home, don't you think you should make better times?

I guess it's because of what you've been doing when you're not around.

are you owing someone money? I hope not. that would be the worst. stealing from family is still acceptable, we're family, forgive and forget system is automatic. but friends, you can never really trust them. even when you think they've forgiven you, they might be stabbing you in the back.

no one's stabbed me in the back before. but they've stabbed me right on the gut, always, face to face. how daring. but the forgive and forget system is still applied. somehow.

okay so off with bad news and on with good :) well it's not actually news just something interesting that happened. so if you've been reading a lot of prefect blogs then maybe you'll know that today was the prefect installation. so most of the day (supposed to be the whole day) there were no prefects in class. plus the fact that there's 8 prefects in our class, 2 absentees and Lea going off for MSR at the end of the day we had very little people in class.

Sabrina : Don't forget to buy food to eat in class! :D

we.. didn't buy anything to eat in class.

anyways, the installation ended earlier than intended so half of the last period (Maths, Cik Shatirah). we were doing PATS and what not. then after a couple of minutes they entered class, the fans turned off. the electricity was off.

at first we thought the prefects were the reason the electricity was off, but of course us 2G's thought logically - something must've happened. so after a while, the prefects were called back again for something. and so they left. just when they were around the back of the class, THE FANS AND LIGHTS WENT BACK ON.

we shouted and laughed and screeched (skolah perempuan la plak, waktu-waktu gedik adalah dimestikan) and the prefects made a U-turn. their mouths hung as we laughed and asked them to leave. I bet Cik Shatirah was laughing in the inside too (emotionless teacher, don't expect much). the prefects left with utter confusion and curiosity - WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING?

so that was the story of the prefects.

I found out my writing on the board "I <3 Roxas" from a few days ago was not erased. no one noticed since I hid it behind one of those posters. haha good thing the LP3K's don't check thoroughly :P I don't even have to wipe my window everyday, just once every two or three days :) then today Nadhrah pulled the poster up, saw it and attempted drawing him. he looked like a POTATO. a HAIRY potato.

then I attempted drawing him. unexpectedly, it turned out quite CUTE :D then I drew a stick figure of him holding up the gem thingy. I got a balloon with the colour of the gem and wrote <3 Elyna <3 Roxas <3 on it. :3

It was SO hard to find this, apparently not a lot of people were a fan of this scene. to me, it's one the beauties of KH2 :')

The whole gang.

I think Roxas looks so cute here!!! Don't you think so? :D

Oh yea, you guys keeps asking me who's Roxas. If you don't own a PS2, the you can read the manga :) manga fox should have the full series. But they're not from the same distributor though, it's fan-made. but it's still published. I saw it at MPH once :)
no anime though. sigh.


p.s, as many times as I blinked
I've thought of you tonight.

what you've got is hard to find.
I think about it all the time.
I'm all strung out my heart is fried.
I just can't get you off my mind.

how can I get over you like this?
It's so HARD.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

bring it on hold.

finally, my hyper days are OVER.

weird recess today. was not who I am. Hope I didn't hurt anyone for my behaviour. but I doubt I brought anyone else into this.


Wednesday, July 21, 2010

blond vs brunette.

I watched that MV while having lunch until I dripped sauce on my pants and on mom's sofa (oops.. hopefully mom won't be pissed). hate the beginning but LOVE the ending ^^ it's so sweet~!


"Did you bring that comic you had on Monday?" I asked, poking Sammie's thigh. I could feel the person next to her looking at me, then looking at Sammie for her respond.

"Um..." she said, looking behind me.

"Hmm, what's the name?" I asked myself, tapping my lower lips with a Rocky stick, trying to remember the title of the book. "..AH! Fruits. Do you have it?"

"Oh, umm, no," she replied. I made a sad face. "But I'll be bringing it on Friday, if you wanna read it." I nodded, as if that gave me some type of hope, and walked away.


about the MV, the animation part where he puts his hands up, then offers it to the girl without looking at her, and the girl smiles prettily and accepts, that was my fav part :3

okay back to real life.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT WRONG WITH ME. three days in a row! Hyper days! WTF!
I guess I'm just in the mood. I need something to bring me down. like not passing up a book or something. hmm.

oh well.

I've been borrowing books now a days. I know I don't have time for it, but I also notice the amount of time I spend on the comp can be used for something else (like in this situation, reading) so gonna use less comp!! I have to finish this Little Black Dress book before Monday and then finish up Jing Kai's pink book :3

That iz all.


Tuesday, July 20, 2010

on the contrary.

I feel like I should change my skin. again.

I still think the idea of "A Chapter a Month" thing is cool, but I feel like.. I dunno. I just got.. tired of this all. I like Hanis's blog layout. she also used almost the same thing for SHL. I asked where she got it on FB but she hasn't replied.

Today, I was yet again hyper. Somehow I just feel light-headed, since all the stress of Musical Night's gone. But I still got a bunch of other things planned like..

- PAFA HAVE to do wuduk n azan& iqamat this Friday. will have to take some home time to hafal all the doa (that's the only thing holding me back). also planning to finish up my hafazan this Friday. If I manage to finish the two PAFA earlier, then I can spend the rest of the time hafaling my 4th surah, since it's the time of the month I can't try to hafal it now. if not it'll be the first thing I do seriously =.="

- Maths have to catch up. Managed to finish today's homework just now and tried to do the exercise book thingy, but can't answer the questions (circles, the subtopic I hate most. Yes, fractions have now dropped to number2, since it actually helps a lot, especially the 22/7 of pi :) )

in other news, got my jeans back :) yipee. went to get it after school just now, and got Sammie's sweater and pencil box, too. went to search for her at bus stop before I dropped off the keys back to the teacher's room. thankfully found her, if not I'd be wasting my time :/

also, got pleanty of group work to do =,= never mind. group work means a bunch of hard work divided, so let's be a good team player, shall we? ;)

the class blog haven't been updated a lot lately :( I'm not exactly the type who writes down my homework the minute I get it, so I'm not about to risk anything. I should ask for Laila's list >.<" I dunno why Xueh Wei hasn't been updating it, but you know, I understand. we can't depend on her all the time.

sigh. people having been subbing to me without reason. I'll thank them, but seriously they're not the type of subbers I wanted. these type of subber are like those who does "Sub4Sub", which I do not do since my subscriptions vid list fills itself up everyday anyway. another thing is that HOW DO PEOPLE UPLOAD SO MANY VIDS AT THE SAME TIME?! I mean, I don't take that long to edit vids, but I don't get inspiration 24//7. what are they, an idea machine? well if they were I'd appreciate it if they shared :/

Okay well don't wanna crap much.


Monday, July 19, 2010

after party.

recipe for an awesome day : 

- a friend who has the same head as you
- a gossip to share
- an open mind

so. today me and Lea practically had the same brain. we both understand the concept of "wanting to tell but can't tell so leave things at the end of the rope" (which I always do while blogging, I know!!) and Laila was totally blur about it and as we discussed about it, Laila picked it up quickly and so spoke our language a couple of minutes after, but I don't think she's ever been in that situation.

another time we had the same thoughts were during Agama we discussed on how things have personality too like my scissors are like macho and Laila's scissors are like the party girl type.

"Dia macam a buff guy, wearing a black t-shirt, standing cross-arms."
"Yeah!! Exactly what I thought!!"
:P Over imagination.

that's the first ingredient. next. a gossip to share.
well I can't really share this with many people, the gossip I got from Eva (although i don't think you can consider it gossip, since I dunno, it's not much gossip material.) but there is that incedent where MARYAM KISSED ENGKU. but old news, let what has passed pass.. oh btw it was on the cheek only :P Guess Maryam was too eager to be Erik and kiss her Christine (Xueh Wei) but since Xueh Wei was too "jual mahal" after a series of molesting Erik decided to go for Madam Giry instead :P (no offense Engku just needed a lady character who knows Erik XP)

Yup. Gossip alright. LOL.

Next, an Open Mind ;)
Don't I always have that? ;) think positively of every situation...

- Musical Night wasn't much of a bomber (don't worry, our performance sucked anyways, so if more people saw it then wouldn't we be embarrassed? ;) )
- Didn't get my jeans back (it's just a lesson for me to be more careful next time!!! retrieving it back tomorrow, first thing in the morning!!)
- still don't understand the concept of Yin and Yang (don't worry, syirik pun)
- found out we're doing amali tomorrow, and it's that time of the month for me :( (takpe, something will turn out tomorrow, maybe I don't have to read the surah-surah just do the steps to show that I DO SOLAT)
- Found out Pn. Noraiza is leaving the school this Friday :( (IT'S OKAY, maybe she'll be happier at the other school. she doesn't seem too happy here :/ )
- have "competition" (although all this time I believed, and I KNOW, that I don't expect anything to happen, just for me to get over it :) so no worries for me. plus I don't think those other people meant competition anyways.)

and that's all the positive thinking and open-minded-ness I've been doing today to make an AWESOME day ;) doodeedoodeedoodeedoop.

Oh shit. I just remembered something that will make this day not an awesome day.


Sunday, July 18, 2010

Musical Night '10 - Epilogue

I sat on one of the chairs in the choir room behind the hall. My head was rested against the wall as I watched some students taking their stuff and leaving the room. I was tired of practice, plus we started from early in the morning until now, and we still haven’t perfected our performance. I had some time to buy before my mom arrived – I know because my mom told me she’ll be late – so I just sat there until about five of us and the two advising teachers were left.
“Aren’t you guys going home?” Pn. Tan asked, a lady with nice curls and cute plump asked. She was one of the advisory teachers.
“I’m staying back teacher,” Sharlina, a junior answered. She’s quite outspoken, brave and popular in the team. She’s tall, and dark, but not so nice teeth. There’s a huge mirror on one of the walls, which I noticed she likes to look at as she adjusts her hair. Sometimes, I think she’s a little rude and big-headed, but overall, she’s okay.
Pn. Tan looked at me as if expecting an answer like Sharlina’s. “I’m going back a little late.” Pn. Tan accepted the answer, and didn’t ask anyone else. The others that were left were Simer, Wye Mei and Lipi. Simer’s a form 4, a prefect and is a red-black belt in taekwando. She has VERY long hair, so long if she unties it, it would reach below her knees. She’s okay too, a strong voice and brave to do something extra. Wye Mei’s my age, a little shy at times but still friendly. She’s taller than me, glasses and a round face. She’s also in Japanese, only she started late so she’s going for form 1 classes instead of form 2. Lipi’s nice, a form 4, but quite small. She’s a powerful soprano – higher, but unluckly, highers sit at the last row, and with her size, she’s practically invisible.
“You guys aren’t tired?” Pn. Tan asked some more.
“Of course we are, teacher,” Simer replied. “Mr. Melvin’s really pushing us.” Mr. Melvin Ho’s our instructor. He has been since last year. He has long hair and is in a constant series of t-shirts. He’s nice, but when at desperate times like this, I guess pushing us is the only choice. The performance is tomorrow.
We discussed on how Mr. Melvin had been pushing us, and how much stress we’re put into, with Sharlina, Simer and Pn. Tan conquering the conversation while Wye Mei, Cik Asma, Lipi and I sit back, not getting much chance to comment on how it’s been going. Then suddenly there was a pause in everything, while everyone just went back to their own thoughts.
“Teacher, can we try out our clothes?” asked Sharlina suddenly, pointing at the clothing hanger filled with green and blue outfits. They were sort-of modified kebayas, and they were for two of our performances. By the looks of it, it wasn’t gonna be a big hit. I was too tired to imagine myself wearing it.
“Sure, sure!” Pn. Tan replied, standing up from her seat. Sharlina and Lipi were already browsing through the sizes while I was just leaving my seat, Pn. Tan on her way, Simer leaving in a hurry and Wye Mei not sure if she should join in.
“What colour should alto’s wear?” Sharlina asked some more.
“Oh yea! What colour ah?” Pn. Tan asked back. “Hmm, are there more altos or sopranos?”
“There’s more altos, teacher,” Sharlina said.
“Definitely more altos,” Lipi agreed.
“Then altos should wear blue then,” Pn. Tan replied. “There’s more blue than green.”
Sharlina cheered as I searched for what was obviously my size – S. I watched as Wye Mei finally got up to search for a size. I went back to the seats – which were nearer to the mirror – and took off my tudung and glasses, making sure all doors are locked. I tried on my blue outfit, examining the weird patterns before putting it on. I looked in the mirror and saw myself. I’m quite flat-chested so my body didn’t exactly showed the “beauty” of the outfit but it looked nice. Nicer than on the hangers. The shoulder pads made my shoulders look more broaden. My hair was messily tied up in a bun with a loose rubber band and my glasses were crooked on my nose bridge.    
I looked at the others. Sharlina was satisfied with hers, her chest obviously more developed than mine. Lipi was having some trouble with the zip while Wye Mei shyly changed by the cupboards.
“Okay-lah teacher,” Sharlina said, still observing herself by the mirror.
“Is mine okay, Pn. Tan?” I asked as I neared her.
“Hmm, it looks quite plain huh?” she said. I looked back at the mirror and noticed even MORE how flat-chested I was. “Hm, it’s okay, we can put some pins here, so that you can see your body more. Is it okay, Asma?”
Cik Asma was observing the whole time. “Hmm, okay-lah.”
“She’s so skinny!!!” Sharlina exclaimed. I ignored her comment and changed back into my P.J. clothes. I wonder if there’s an XS. But since teacher didn’t mention anything, I guess there isn’t. Plus, an XS would mean a shorter skirt. I looked around and saw Lipi finally done with her zip. She’s talking about how the back is “deflating”, since she’s wearing an M but with her height it doesn’t really suite her. And her skirt was quite long but she didn’t say anything about that. Wye Mei was already changing back into her P.J. clothes without commenting much.
I loved my outfit too much so I placed a pin at the collarbone so that people would know that’s mine, and we all placed our outfit at a special place in one of the cupboards, claiming our outfit before anyone else got to try out their sizes. Well, our luck.
I left the room, quite satisfied, but still tired. I was thinking about tomorrow, who’s coming and who’s not, who’s performing and how our performance is gonna be. I peeked into the hall, and saw it filled with chairs and wires on the floor, speakers stood at places it hasn’t before, and the orchestra stage grand by one side of the hall. I can’t stop thinking about the orchestra.
The three of us, orchestra, choir and the cultural club, we seem like actual beings, or personalities, if I may say. In my eyes, the orchestra is cool. Everyone loves them, and their flaws can always be forgiven, and sometimes they seem perfect.
Choir is the dramatic, always unprepared, emotional break downs and not exactly loved. People don’t expect much from us – we don’t win that much competition, and our performances aren’t exactly what you can call the best – so it’s as if we don’t really matter that much.
The cultural are like creative bimbos, laughing giddily, make up one of their best departments and dancing practically their life. Moves are everything, and a beautiful body compliments it. Always cheering during practices, and playing around when practice isn’t going on.
I sat down at the cement bench at the bus stop, waiting for my mom.  I thought I was late. Maybe she meant a later late when she said she’s gonna be late (wow that’s a lot of lates). Then my mom arrived, and I sat at the back. Kak Siti, my mom’s clerk, was in front, accompanying my mom as she drove the new car to my school. Mom never drove the Pajero yet, so she was kinda frightened, but I guess she’s okay with it now. Mom asked a couple of questions while explaining little by little about Musical Night to Kak Siti. When she finally went on to another topic, I laid my head against the window and drifted off to sleep, still thinking about what could happen that night.

So that's the epilogue :) this happened on Friday after school. Leave any comment on grammar mistakes, I'm open to it ;)
This is a blog entry so every thought is my own and not meant for criticism toward other people. Please take no offence.


musical night '10.

how can I describe it?

I guess... it was indescribable.
if you want the truth from me, it wasn't "the best experience of my life", "the most exciting thing I've been through" or even "the scariest thing ever". It was... something you go through, and if you could you'd like to repair it, but if you can't, it's okay.

I was planning to write the experience in book-mode, but I really couldn't find where to start. I could end it with a epilogue, but I couldn't find an prologue. hmm. maybe I will. stay tuned. there'll be about 3 to 4 chapters.


Friday, July 16, 2010

i'm not gonna give up.

rimas tau tak rimas? kengkale kalau I tak jawab kat chat tu is because I DON'T FEEL LIKE TALKING TO YOU. and you keep asking if I'm there.. it's kinda annoying when you expect me to jawab balik every single thing yang you cakap!! grr.

so practice today was tiring. the only break we had was for 30 minutes. I was just happy school ended and I slept like a baby for almost the whole afternoon =,= until the actual baby (Umar) came back home and mom was like "Na, ambik alas Umar." *goes and take* "letak atas sofa tu (where I was sleeping)" "(=__=") *puts*" terpakse beralah.
so prep for tomorrow...

- MJ clothes (need ironing and hanging)
- black tudung ( I need to iron it again? :/ I think I'll do it tomorrow, tak nampak sngt kesan lipat)
- safety pins to adjust my outfit (will ask from Kak Ain later :) )
- shoes (DONE)

and that's it ;)
erk. I have this feeling when you're kinda hot at the face, your heart trembling just by the slightest and your hands don't know where to go.

when you're around, I dunno where to look. cuz truthfully you're the only person I wanna see.



Thursday, July 15, 2010

hello, you :)

ahaha, you're still as vain as when I last met you ;) don't worry dear, there ARE boys who actually like people like you, but I doubt there's any girl who likes you ;)

today!!! was very LONG :D let me schedule out what I did... (I explained this to my mom when she asked me about it, was very tiring since I'm fasting today T_T)

7.30 - 7.40 - Attendance
7.40 - 9.30 - Hall, MPPH Ko-Ku (was stalking someone ;) )
9.30 - 10 - Lepaked with Nurin and Dhanya at Gallery, changed clothes
10 - 11.30 - Choir practice
11.30 - 2 - Teacher's concert, laughed so hard at canteen guy x3 I wonder if people will ask for his autograph XD
2 - 2.30 - solat, rehat
2.30 - 5 - choir practice >.<"

soo tiring... mom asked how ready we were, and I said, I dunno about 80% ready? :3 choir, that is, I dunno bout Orc and Kebu :3

so that was it! :3 very, very long day. planning some stuff bout where Joy should sit XD lol.

Joy if you catch me online tegur me I have to tell you something...

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

who's birthday is it today?

IT'S XUEH WEI'S birthday! :D
yea, you birthday girl!! :D
I'd like to wish you a long, lasting happy life
and good health and wealth :)
so enjoy your upcoming years, and work hard in everything you do,
okay? ;)

Loves, Elyna ;)

Sora, Riku and Roxas all LOVES Xueh Wei and they're willing to give ANYTHING to get her, and they fight, show off their skills and hotness (;D) but in the end, Sora won her heart by giving her the most beautiful thing she's seen :') (WHICH, he was supposed to keep for Kairi ;P two timer.)

if it was me, I would've fallen for Roxas xDD 

eff youtube.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

unselfish love.

wow, I feel like sleeping.

well today we had immense practicing. Mr. Melvin came one and a half hours late (is that a new record? no I don't think so.) and I feel like dying knowing the amount of homework I have (not much, but it's hard for me to do all these stuff considering how active I am online with DA and YT and what not).

Briged computer still broken, so another week with no deviantations sent in unless it's digital. sigh. I wanted to make the lineart for my collab! :'( didn't fast today, because when I woke up at 4 my mom was snoring so I was like, "... kesian mak. takyah lah. *sleeps*" the next morning my mom asked me why I didn't woke up for sahur. I didn't say anything, didn't want her to go all dramatic (you don't wanna know how sensitive she is).

which, I'm actually glad of, me not fasting, since practice was so tiring. I wonder what would've happened if I fasted. T T well, 4 more days to qada' and I'm done. Ramadhan starts at 11th August so...

Oh yea, exams on 3RD - 5TH AUGUST. Sabsab said it's not counted, and I said "then don't have to study la :)" and she said a lot of people said that... well parents are gonna be pissed though :/

*whispers* that person's birthday is on a SUNDAY. :/

oh yea, guess who's birthday it is TOMORROW ;P
surprise for you. make sure you come online tomorrow. I hope you'll like it >.<"


Monday, July 12, 2010

haters will hate.


confidential... I tell you confidential things :(
i wonder why people are finding it hard to trust me. Even Lea isn't telling me things that she's telling Nurin. haish.
in other news, where some how I'm yet again not accepted by Earth, Alani.. seems to dislike me. for reason beyond my knowledge. Azi said she just find me annoying.

I still find it hard to believe that I could consider today "plain". Hafizah cried in class today, Ustazah didn't teach us agama, I felt unneeded, I found out Samantha was a Tan, and had a FB, I found out Alani dislikes me, and Joy wouldn't tell me that thing.

Yes, it is very PLAIN.
Hahah, funny convo on the way back from agama...
yet again, if you're sensitive bout races and religion and stuff, don't read it...

me and Nuryn : *walks around the club boards*
Me : look, they even have prayer requests.. *shows at box at Christian Fellowship board*
Nuryn : I wonder what they request for..
Me : haha, maybe we can send something like, "Bismillahirrahmannirahim.. Ya Allah.. tolong ampunkan dosa-dosa mereka.." XD
Nuryn : LOL..

Just in case you read it out of curiousity, hey, we were just joking kays? ;)


Sunday, July 11, 2010

dikir puteri.

One of the song that's gonna be performed :)

pretty fly for rock lee.

Give it to me baby. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Give it to me baby. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Give it to me baby. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
And all the girlies say I'm pretty fly
For a white guy.
Uno, dos, tres, cuatro, cinco, cinco, seis.

You know it's kind of hard
Just to get along today.
Our subject isn't cool,
But he fakes it anyway.
He may not have a clue;
And he may not have style.
But everything he lacks
Well he makes up in denial.

So don't debate, a player straight
You know he really doesn't get it anyway.
He's gonna play the field, and keep it real.
For you no way, for you no way.
So if you don't rate, just overcompensate.
At least you'll know you can always go on Ricki Lake.
The world needs wannabe's.
So (Hey! Hey!) do that brand new thing.

Give it to me baby. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Give it to me baby. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Give it to me baby. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
And all the girlies say I'm pretty fly
For a white guy.

He needs some cool tunes
Not just any will suffice.
But they didn't have Ice Cube
So he bought Vanilla Ice.
Now cruising in his Pinto,
He sees homies as he pass.
But if he looks twice
They're gonna kick his lily ass.

So don't debate, a player straight
You know he really doesn't get it anyway.
He's gonna play the field, and keep it real.
For you no way, for you no way.
So if you don't rate, just overcompensate.
At least you'll know you can always go on Ricki Lake.
The world loves wannabe's.
So (Hey! Hey!) do that brand new thing

Now he's getting a tattoo.
Yeah he's gettin' ink done.
He asked for a '13',
But they drew a '31'.
Friends say he's trying too hard
And he's not quite hip.
But in his own mind
He's the, he's the dopest trip.

Give it to me baby. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Give it to me baby. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Give it to me baby. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Uno, dos, tres, cuatro, cinco, cinco, seis.

So don't debate, a player straight
You know he really doesn't get it anyway.
He's gonna play the field, and keep it real.
For you no way, for you no way.
So if you don't rate, just overcompensate.
At least you'll know you can always go on Ricki Lake.
The world needs wannabe's.
Oh the world loves wannabe's.
So let's get some more wannabe's.
And (Hey! Hey!) do that brand new thing.

whaat? this doesn't make sense?
YES IT DOES. it says that you should just be yourself no matter what other people think ;P


Saturday, July 10, 2010

morning chaos.

copied, pasted and edited from a convo with *** :) no not THAT *** my FRIEND ***!!!

okay, it starts with ANOTHER message this week from H*****.
he's been texting me a lot lately, n I layan je..
kesian la pulak kan.
so anyways,
he told me he can come.
at the same time,
i was teling N*****, after MONTHS of not talking to her, about *** (this time the real ***).
then, my FB chat got really busted.
she tot i wasn't confirming that i was having a crush on ***!
and I refreshed, saw all my un-sent msgs,
and wrote on N**'s wall "my FB chat retarded. on YM?"
and on that moment, H**** smsed me
she said she's coming to pj, and she wants to meet me at Digital Mall.
i couldn't come.
with a series of telling H***** "umm im bz"
and asking my mom if she's sure no one could send me,
i sat on the chair in front of the comp,
seeing that N** had to go sumwhere.
so she didnt come online, n the crush fact wasnt confirmed.
so i was relaxed then.
after a couple of hours, H***** texted me
"r u still bz with H****?"
i didn't reply :):)
around 5 or 6, he texted me again "is it raining at your place?"
i ignored it again :):)
then just then, he texted me once more...
"tak kan sampai malam busy?"
yet again, I pretended I didn't have any credit left :):)

-the end-

*** said it was interesting enough to be made into a short story.
... betul ke? haha.
after editing that, I realized how UNinteresting it was.
And Nis, haha seriously? Haris Hamdan? LOL XD that would be a sight.


Friday, July 9, 2010

i can't think many ways to love ya.

i know i'm one of them, but I don't disturb that person / the person's friends like, 24/7.
I consider other people's feelings.
not think that the feeling is mutual 100%.

what does it mean when you say "I have a crush on ..." ?
most symptoms are when...

- you dunno where to look when that person is around because actually the only thing you wanna look at is that person.
- you can't speak properly in front of that person because you're afraid you'll say something wrong.
- everything you do reminds you of that person.

I dunno why I just listed that out.
I guess what I'm feeling now is considered CRUSH, right? :3
only Joy knows...


I'll always turn back to you.

I guess... when I have no idea what to type in the address box, I can only go here to be able to do anything I like and love. That's why Blogger HAS to be one of man's best creations of all.

so... can I just eat my heart out? you know what, don't bother reading I'm gonna spill some crap out, as usual :D

>.< I'm really starting to hate Tally. I'm hoping he wouldn't be able to come to Musical Night. hohoho. I know I'm so evil, but if he's coming there ARE some advantages... like for instance, One of my tickets will be sold ;) next, at least I know it wouldn't be a BORING night xP

another thing is.. Shorty.. haha I've forgotten bout him lol XP most probably because he doesn't even have Facebook... but never mind...

Can I say I love you? I definitely don't think I do, but I know I'm in love with you ;)


ipod meme.

don't you just hate life when it gives you lemon?
or worse yet, gives you nothing?

I am tired of keeping this a secret. if it wasn't so deadly, everyone I knew would know about it.
but it IS deadly.
so keeping it a secret is ESSENTIAL.
I just wish HE knew.
then he'd stop disturbing me >.< it's kinda annoying.

I want Musical Night to come faster :'(


Thursday, July 8, 2010

random SuJu stuff.

for random reasons.

Birth name: Lee Sung-min
Born: January 1, 1986
Blood Type: A
Origin: Seoul, Republic of Korea
Genre(s): K-pop, trot
Occupation(s): Singer, dancer, actor, DJ
Instrument(s): piano, guitar, bass guitar, drums
Voice type(s): Tenor
Years active: 2005–present
Label(s): SM Entertainment
Associated acts: *SMTown
*Super Junior
*Super Junior-T
*Super Junior-Happy

Birth name: Lee Dong-hae
Also known as: Donghai (東海/东海)
Born: October 15, 1986 (1986-10-15)
Blood Type: A
Mokpo, Jeollanam-do, Republic of Korea
Origin: Seoul, Republic of Korea
Genre(s): K-pop, Mandopop, hip hop, R&B
Occupation(s): Singer, dancer, actor
Instrument(s): Singing, rapping, piano, guitar
Voice type(s): Tenor
Years active: 2005–present
Label(s): SM Entertainment
Associated acts: *SMTown
*Super Junior
*Super Junior-M

Birth name: Cho Kyu-hyun
Also known as: Guixian (圭賢/圭贤)
Born: February 3, 1988 (1988-02-03)
Blood Type: A
Origin Republic of Korea
Genre(s): K-pop, Mandopop, R&B
Occupation(s): Singer, dancer
Instrument(s): Singing, piano
Voice type(s): Bass
Years active: 2006–present
Label(s): SM Entertainment
Associated acts: *SMTown
*Super Junior
*Super Junior-K.R.Y
*Super Junior-M

No Other (Translation)

There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that, where else to look for?
A good person like you, a good person like you, with a good heart like you, a gift as great as you
How lucky that I’m the person who will try his hard to protect you, where else to look for?
A happy guy like me, a happy guy like me, the guy with the happiest smile like me

Your two warm hands gets cold when I’m cold
Your heart that used to be strong becomes sensitive when I’m hurt
Take my hands silently, hold me silently, I’m only wishing for such little comforts
You don’t know my heart that wanted to do more just for you

Call out my heart, free my soul
It always felt like the first time, these remaining days are more than the time that I came to love you

There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that, where else to look for?
A good person like you, a good person like you, with a good heart like you, a gift as great as you
How lucky that I’m the person who will try his hard to protect you, where else to look for?
A happy guy like me, a happy guy like me, the guy with the happiest smile like me

When my greedy heart gradually search to other directions
When my mind can’t handle whenever my greed grow even more
I know all those reasons that clearly says that you’re here, it’s the only one
I’m always thankful. I could do better as you do

Call out my heart, free my soul
It always felt like the first time, these remaining days are more than the time that I came to love you

There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that, where else to look for?
A good person like you, a good person like you, with a good heart like you, a gift as great as you
How lucky that I’m the person who will try his hard to protect you, where else to look for?
A happy guy like me, a happy guy like me, the guy with the happiest smile like me

You know, I’m a little bit shy sometimes, you don’t know but you’re burning like the sun, please understand my feelings
Even those girls that appears on TV shows are sparkling, you’re always be the one in my eyes (I’m going crazy crazy Baby)
Hearing you tell me that you love me, I have everything in this world, You & I, You’re so fine, is there someone like you?
I love you Oh, please know it, to me there’s only you, that I stupidly see you as my everything

We arrived on the same road, we’re just the same, how surprising, how grateful, it’s love

There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that, where else to look for?
A good person like you, a good person like you, with a good heart like you, a gift as great as you
How lucky that I’m the person who will try his hard to protect you, where else to look for?
A happy guy like me, a happy guy like me, the guy with the happiest smile like me

Out. <3

no other.

fasting again today. sigh. didn't go to canteen to continue with the NiE thingy. Didn't get to sell the tickets. :'( tomorrow it is then.

from choir practice for 2 hours to half an hour break to Jap class; it caused my throat started to feel like its bleeding when I tried to talk to mom. slept for a while until 5.45 just now n solat n here I am. SO not in the mood. right now I feel like drinking that tea I'll be getting later, but later I wouldn't really care anymore. =.=""


- Joy's mom complimented me (so young and cute >.<)
- asked bout musical nite


well, THAT made my day.


Wednesday, July 7, 2010

I don't even care, actually I do.

so today was open day. kukuku. apparently my parents didn't exactly pierce my heart like they used to :3 thank God for that. maybe it's cuz I'm already used to their ways X3

so around 2, we gathered at Laila's house to continue NiE :3 Lea couldn't come because of technical difficulties. I feel bad for her for private reasons >.<

Xueh Wei was the one who kecoh-kecoh nak datang, and she came LAST. Anesha didn't even need instructions to come! and me being the one who's been to Laila's a load of times, came first of course :3

so we did the project.. worked hard while having loads of FUN :D played songs and Sims3 (OMG BEST EXPERIENCE EVER. Me and Anesha were like "OMG THIS IS BEAUTIFULLL" at the beginning XD ) and kecohed around with cameras and stuff XD omg I just love these guys...

XueH Wei

cuz they are SO CUTE  and KECOH <3 <3
XUEH WEI SO GAY <3 lol (private joke)

Then when Anesha had to leave we SERIOUSLY needed a group photo so first attempt was Laila's phone.. but it was totally BLANK. we didn't know what happened. Then Laila pulled out a DSLR. but the zoom was so hard to adjust!!! so we moved on to a digital camera (we had to hurry cuz Anesha's mom was DOWNSTAIRS.) and.. it WORKED :D see, this is the reason we chose Science and Tech XD

Then Xueh Wei was doing something on FB and she was like "THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL I'M GONNA CRY" and I loled. it was so RIDICULOUS to cry over something virtual.. but never mind, Xueh Wei GAY LIDDAT.

paling kecoh was when we were trying to do some stuff and..

-Laila kecoh about how we're gonna die since printer was broken due to storm
-Xueh Wei kecoh about taking random pictures = ="
-Anesha kecoh about how she wanted to play Sims3
-I .. kecoh bout everything :D and most probably on how badly everybody was treating the sim :'( I DONT CARE IF ITS VIRTUAL WE DESIGNED IT SO BEAUTIFULLY AND YOU'RE GONNA LEAVE IT LIKE DAT AH? Oh Justine Lautner :'( (it's a girl)

kecoh kecoh kecoh. printer broke down, and we had to move to PLAN B. which was Laila print it at her Abah's office :3 kukuku.. amazing thing is, no matter how kecoh we were, we still managed to finish the project!! X3 TEAM CYBER VOGUE!!! WOOT

in other news...
Am in love with Donghae and Kyuhyun <3 not Korean freak, just BOY LOVER <3


p.s, Nurin, please know that I care. I really do. don't keep anything away from me please. thank you.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

made me cry.

So heard this song from an AMV. Was so interested with the song but the AMV creator was EVILL (haha, jk 1heartgirl >3 BUT THIS WILL COME BACK!!!) so had to search it myself through YT, when I found out the title downloaded through Ares. I felt like crying at a moment. :'(

this is also a celebration...

450th POST!

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

-Eminem ft. Rihanna-

p.s, I'm REALLY hating YT right now. grr. eff hangs.

happy ever after.

so thankfully death haven't arrived yet. be thankful that everyday you can still breath. you can die anytime.

I know, I know, emo. but fasting doesnt exactly make me happy. I can taste SYRUP in my mouth *drools* sigh. i am so craving for something sweet and liquidy right now *drools again*

anyway, today was kinda lame. nuthin much to blog about. the Secret Club was kinda lame today, until I told about the "Collection". only difference is that I actually told them who *** is. and Azi and Nurin wasn't around so I was more open (yea right) to tell them about it.

I STILL haven't countinued my article because apparently the school computer can't open 2007 words. so... Nothing much to do. a couple of minutes more than an hour left. so I'ma BLOG :D

I don't feel like opening Facebook. mostly cuz, I'm kinda bored with it. I use it mostly for stalking and playing SL anyway which I'm more comfortable doing at home. the Briged computer is broken so no printing, scanning or deviantart-ing (it wouldnt be fun without me submitting anything anyway) can be done.

Am I gonna blog some more about how much this sucks? Yes. even though there's a couple of awesome-looking games in this computer. I feel like typing a lot >)




p.s, it effing hurts to keep this. but I gotta.

Monday, July 5, 2010

they don't really care bout us.

okay i'm addicted to the medley Melvin thought us.

So Musical Night! My first one ever :D
yet again, have NOTHING to expect,
since, I guess, I've never actually experienced it.

I feel like the school is doing this to our batch.
like, not have the Hari K. and Musical Night last year 
(although I'm convinced Musical Drama is WAYY better)
and make us look bad in front of the juniors like
"So this is your first time doing this too?"

and we'll go
"...yea, apparently."

I think the ticket costs RM10.
we'll get 5 tickets to sell,
but I'm not sure if my class mates will get them too.
well whatever it is,
I booked one for Joy :D
just hope she could come XDD

in other news (a.k.a. BAD news)
we got out NiE one paged tablet
(the other page we're getting tomorrow, 
which I do not get, 
since I saw other people got two joint pieces :/)
so we're gonna start.

basically, we chose the theme Science and Tech
our newspaper title is Cyber Vogue
which I think is really cute X)
(yea duh I came up with it :P)
And the jobs are...
Me - Main Article *horrifying screech* and comic/s
Xueh Wei - 3 Side articles, quotes, pictures
Lea - Cover, Sudoku
Laila - print, blog and tech tips
Anesha - Quiz

...and that's the story of how I'm officially dead meat.

well, obviously I could search something up in the Internet, print it out and say its mine but
I'm not that type.
although I'm the type that cuts and pastes lines from different articles to make one XD
but I'll feel bad,
cuz Xueh Wei is doing 3 articles
and (I'm guessing)
Looks like I've gotta work hard.

other than school related stuff,
I've been reading A and Z's blogs recently.
they SERIOUSLY need to make up.
A's wayy too emo
and Z.. seems like she couldn't careless.
I thought 2A's and B's yang kurang masalah emotional.
rupe-rupenye mereka pun bermasalah seperti budak-budak.
hmm.. what can I say?
I guess nothing's like what it seems like anymore.


P.S, If we don't have to sell the tickets to Sri Amanians,
maybe I could invite Hanis and Core? :)
maybe even Azra, for Laila's sake
cuz I bet Laila doesn't have to sell tickets =,=
but if I have to sell to Sri Amanians, 
confirmed ones are (since I'm so nice to them)


No Ain because I bet Azi will sell to her :)

Sunday, July 4, 2010

turn me around again.

okay so i'm phacking bored.
so I'ma type a bunch of sheet out.

so bored.

woot I'm level 87 in Sorority Life.

yea yea, EFF YOU.
sorry I just felt like saying that to some one.
okay now I feel like crying.
I need to pee.


man, I need a life.
I'm too lazy to edit videos now a days.
I dunno what to draw.
I don't feel like ironing my clothes (yet.)
And the part I'm reading in Ghostgirl now is too frustrating, 
and everybody hates frustrating parts.

Joy, Eva, Iman.. they're all offline.
I don't want to habiskan credit Harith.
and it looks like the only choice I have is to sleep.


or go around whining bout my secret to people who don't even know who that person is until that person gets annoyed and will try to do anything to get out of my grasp of whining.