Sunday, October 31, 2010

you never forget our friendship even though for 2 years we've been separated and also it's because of your kindness, loving and for just being you :)

I love Alya Suaidah binti Adlan.


This laptop.. aish.. I bet it's cuz of the Hello Baby thing.. benci betul...

I know.. It's because Bakmal slalu tengok girls, so you don't like boys? You prefer girls? Your mindset dah rosak la, laptop. Laptops need to be bi. they can't pick. understood?
now let's watch Korean guys instead of ....  okay?

sigh. I think the laptop has turned boy already. can't wait to buy my own laptop. firstly, I will definitely buy a laptop that's a different colour than this. bronze is not only male, but also ugly. and I thought Bakmal had taste. maybe there weren't many options.

When I get my own laptop, I'll get something silver or platinum blue for sure. teamed up with black. the bag should be... actually that really depends, but I want that padded laptop cover thingy as the bag, so that I can just put it inside my backpack like ^^ or or just bring it around in my arms, like a book or something kyaa xD that would look so cool. can't wait to go to college ^^

but that's just appearance. what about performance?

Well, I've just concluded something. One thing I would be really specific about is that it wouldn't be... *looks around* *whispers* ... Compaq branded.

The laptop I'm using now a.k.a. Bakmal's laptop is Compaq. Lea's laptop, too, as I remembered was Compaq. And what happened to that laptop? Lea punched the screen and hit it on the ground and now it's somewhere being fixed.

Okay that maybe because my friend is a bit ... unhealthy but the reason she did it is because the laptop was so slow.
I now understand.

Every time this laptop hangs I just slide in my seat and rub my hands on my thigh, sighing. patience. if it hangs some more anytime soon I'll definitely feel like what Lea felt like doing, only this isn't even my laptop, so I'll have to be even more patience. I was already bullying the mouse by clicking the "X" button millions of times. I only stopped because I was afraid the not-mine mouse would be broken.

But I guess if it's my laptop, I would feel like taking better care of it, yes? I guess that's only applied if I bought the laptop myself. Like my parents said, since everything's given to us, we don't feel the loss money wise.

which is why I hope to contribute to the payment of my first laptop, rather than Ayah paying 100% for it. I only question how. I can't exactly collect money right now, I get just enough allowance to buy the expensive food at our canteen. Meh. I should at least try, yes?

Maybe I should just wait till I grow up and go to college, like Bakmal.

Naah, I can't wait that long, by then people will move on to something else. Collecting money it is, then.

Starting from today, me, Nur Elyna bt. Mahzan, 
will promise to save every sen I have in hopes to contribute to my first laptop! 
Ciayok (is that how you spell it?) !
Semoga berjaya!
Best of luck!


Saturday, October 30, 2010

halloween celebration?

Not really. sincerely, I forgot today was Halloween. I remembered on Friday, and yesterday I forgot.

But coincidentally, I typed out this tonight so. Haha.
Read it, kays? It's a Lynn Mahzan original ;)

and and I almost forgot haha



shinee hello baby.



I wanna try something out.

so I want to try something with GIFs that I've seen around Tumblr :)

Jonghyun goes to School

Waking up in the morning

Driving to school

Seeing friends

Flirting with the girls

Hearing someone bitch about you


 Someone bullies you

Heard a funny joke in class

Someone pisses you off


Being asked to answer a question in a boring class

Answering a question you don't know

Getting the question right

School ends

I think this is gonna be a success >:)
But I'm afraid if it won't be. Maybe I should wait for more followers first.


Friday, October 29, 2010

i am bored so forgive me for crapping.

guess what I found? :D


I really wanna do these type of stuff but.. firstly, I don't have a tablet like Hana or Cynta or Sammie nor do I have self confidence like Eva to draw using the mouse.  secondly, I really prefer having paint tool sai which I only have on my computer so. And to use a tablet is really better with a laptop. and I really don't wanna install my stuff on other people's laptops.

so the only time I can do this is if I have my own laptop and a tablet and find something simple enough and improve my drawing skills so that I can draw all those.which will only happen if I get 8A's for PMR and can collect enough money up to 500 bucks and a miracle happens. so lets all pray for a miracle.

anyway, I was so bored that I decided to look at my Tumblr archive (which sincerely looks more awesome than Blogger archives haha) and I've made a research.

January 2010
Just started Tumblr. not that many posts, mostly from blog. first post on January 11th. all in all, 12 posts (minus blog posts)

February 2010
still on Tumblr every once in a while. 23 posts.

March 2010
1 post.

April 2010
0 posts.

May 2010
0 posts. am totally oblivious I even have Tumblr.

June 2010
0 posts.

July 2010
1 post. Looks like I have awaken from my blurness.

August 2010
4 posts. HAH. miracle.

September 2010
20 posts. that was a rapid raise, yes? no.

October 2010.
545 posts.
eff yea. consists of KPOP fandom and typography. with the amount of 23 followers. how pitiful.


p.s, I hate peeling onions that won't cooperate.

kpop craze.

tonight, I'm gonna post a couple of videos of my latest fav songs :) and mind you, it does not only consist of KPOP so bare with me.

but before that, I'm gonna rant about Minho from SHINee.

Man, that dude doesn't get a lot of lines. I mean I know he's lead rapper so the verses shouldn't be his highlight but still. The raps are only like 1/10 of the song. and if Key gets some of the lines, wouldn't he be like only 1/20 of the song?? Like kesiannyer. SMEnt, come on. give him a break! or at least, a couple more lines.

So here's a tribute of SHINee first. I know you'll say "if you're a real SHINee fan you should know more than 3 of their songs" well apparently I don't and I don't care. cuz I'm not SHINee's huge fan, I'm an ELF. So there you go, their 3 top hit songs.

P.S, I love my Bling Bling Jonghyun <3

SO LET'S START! I've been opening a LOT of tabs :)
Starting from randoms >3<

I only heard this like once and I already love it x3

Natsu's ending. Lucy's was a lil.. kindergarten-ish. can't wait to listen to Gray's ending! :D

And next set, 2NE1 songs!

Lemme tell you something though, I didn't like that much songs of theirs. The first time I heard of them was from BIGBANG's Lollipop. And I wasn't into KPOP so much then, just partly. But then people started talking bout them and MTV made them Asian Takeaway's Artist of the Month and I'm like, "Who are these girls and what's so special bout them anyway??" Well, I'm not one to tell, cuz I still haven't found out that much :P haha. But I know the leader's name is CL! but.. yea that's it.

But anyway, I still don't like their songs that much. until I heard I Don't Care and I'm like AHH :DD But I discovered this was last year's song. :/ well. still.

So here's their four songs that I managed to squeeze into my favourites! :D

Natasha : *makes a joke* FAIYAA (fire, as in the one by 2NE1) :DD
Me : oh that song? I heard it once. I don't like it.
Natasha : DD: WHY YOU NO LIKE??
Me : I dunno I just don't.
Natasha : TAPI BESTT
Me : OH but I like I don't care :D
Natasha : ?
Me : You don't know that song? Kay nevermind.

Last but not least... *drumrolls* the not-exactly-a-song-I-like-but-somehow-I-cried-watching-the-MV song, AS A MAN BY GUMMY :D

but apparently, the song wasn't attractive nor addictive enough to catch my ears.
gomen Gummy, but you fail. other than I'm Sorry. but that was practically because of T.O.P. anyway.


P.S, haha yes I just love being mean >:)


Nurin was wondering what that hole thingy in your bag was for and Yen Fern explained it to her. Mind you, even I didn't know this.
YenF: Your earplugs go through here..
*keecoh-kecoh, laugh-laugh, haha-haha*
YenF: *starts explaining again* you eyeplugs.. EARplugs..
*laugh-laugh, high-fives*
:Iman : do you even know what earplugs are? it's earphones!

Moral : make sure you know what you're talking about. especially when you're talking about body parts and you have a friend with ears like mine.
Senangnya dalam hati
Kalau beristeri dua
Terasa dunia ini
Ana yang punya

Kepada isteri tua
Ana sayang padanya
Kepada isteri muda
I say i love you

Isteri tua merajuk
Balik kerumah isteri muda
Kalau dua-dua merajuk
Ana kahwin tiga

Mesti pandai pembohong
Mesti pandai temberang
Tetapi jangan sampai
Hai pecah tembelang

P. Ramlee's Madu Tiga song.
Sigh. Men.

Moral : Jangan rajin-rajin merajuk, nanti cepat je cari lain.


Anyway, at first I didn't know this was P. Ramlee's song. I heard it on the radio sang by an Indo singer. and instead of "ana" he used "kanda" which I think I prefer but stick to the original lyrics better la.

So I asked my brother, "Bang, ape name lagu yang ade lirik *sings part of the first verse*" and he was like "..." and I was like "alaa, lagu yang Indon nyanyi tu.." and I sang a bit more and he was like "Tu lagu P. Ramlee laa" and I was like "O.O Oh. LOL. baru tau." 

Then ayah was like "Apeela tak tau tu lagu P. Ramlee. Siape tak tau tu lagu P. Ramlee?" and Abang agreed. somehow mom and Kak Ain wasn't there to back me up and I wasn't ready for a good comeback, so I kept quiet. Thanks a lot for making me feel bad, dad.

Men. Sigh.

Moral : Don't ask your brother or dad about songs you're not sure about, or else you might get teased.


P.S, OOH, did I tell you the last day of exam was GREAT?! Before recess no exam, Seni was like "Pttch I don't give a f***" then KH was like "Pttch this is too easy" then Japanese was like "OMG I don't know this. there's no point of giving yourself a headache if you didn't study it anyway so I'll just tembak." then hung out for like almost an hour because I told my mom I'm going home at 3.30. haha. andd I watched Sorority Row!! :) for the first time I watched a murder movie myself. it wasn't that awesome though. no loves for the Theta Pi's. haha.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

breaking news.

Me : *doing maths paper 2, hardest paper I have ever gotten after Ms. Mallika's UPSR trial papers*
Xwei : *stares at me*
Me : *look*
Xwei : :))
Me : *roll eyes* (how can she actually do this paper?? eff.)


Tomorrow is the FINAL day of exams.

Kemahiran Hidup
Pendidikan Seni
and Japanese.

Why am I still here?

There's nothing much to talk about anyway, I mean, what can you say about exams?

other than 'jhfjabfjasbfjabfsajbfafafas'?

okay, so it wasn't THAT bad the first two days. but Science paper two was JBFASLJF and paper 1 I thought was okay (as usual) but turns out.. not okay (as usual). I AM SO FREAKING NOT GOOD IN SCIENCE..! even when I think I did okay, I did not do okay. jafjasbfasd.

Paper 1 and I was like :)) oh my GOSH that was a great paper.
but paper 2 I was like :(( OH MY GOSH THAT WAS A FAIL.

Agama? I left out two questions. and bantai like, 5 questions. (or as ustazah calls it, "goreng")

Today we got our Sejarah marks.

Xueh Wei : how much did you get?
Me : :( 84. ONE MORE MARK TO A!
Xwei : aww, no worries, come sit here..
Me : *sits* How much did you get Prii?
Prii : 81 :(
Me : oh... *wants to hug, but hesitates*
Prii : what? what is it?
Me : I wanted to hug you, but I remembered you didn't like hugs.
Prii : aww (thinks I'm sad cuz I got lower than her) *offers hug*
Me : :)) *hugs*
Prii : how much did you get?
Me : *hides face* 84.
Prii : WHAT? DD:
Xwei: :)) heehee
Prii : shuddup, xwei. we all know you got a high mark.
Xwei : :)) oh well. *leaves*
Prii : I can never get her. she can be the sweetest person on earth, but she can be so mean sometimes.
Me : agreed. she's like the Lucifer. some people say he's an angel. but some say he's the devil. >:)

I am now freaking scared for Geo marks. I already got 1 B, I don't think I can stand getting another B.
Other than Science and Agama. I would totally understand.
So.. 3 B's, rest A's?


Sunday, October 24, 2010

this gif gave me dreams.

no worries. not a bad dream. not a dirty dream neither. I was FRIENDS with LEE HYUKJAE. a.k.a. the person above. the boy, not the girl.

so cute yes? :]


when you're on tumblr.

  • you can't stop reblogging cool stuff until your post almost 100 posts a day. 
  • you get lost in all the stuff people you followed posted that there will be a moment you'll get confused.
  • you can go "back" for more than 50 or 70 pages.
  • you hope to see someone reblogged something you posted in the sea of posts.
  • you didn't notice that you have been reblogging stuff for almost an hour.
  • you hope that after reblogging so many stuff you think is cool, you'll get a couple of followers.
  • you forget that tomorrow is your finals and the hardest subject is on the first day and you just finished off READING THROUGH all the chapters and have not exactly mastered anything and so therefore should not have let yourself celebrate by stealing your dad's laptop and going on tumblr thinking "I'm just checking for a while".


Friday, October 22, 2010


It's advised that religion-sensitive people to not read this. It MAY contain offensive words about other religions, although I don't really mean it. Seriously I don't.

Last Wednesday, I had the sneezies. I hate the sneezies. it involves a lot of tissue and trying to not let people see your snot. But thankfully, this sneezies involved just a lot of energy pressurizing since I sneezed a lot, but nothing but dust came out. And me as a proud Muslim, will say to myself "Alhamdulilah" after everytime I sneeze :)

During the morning announcements, I sneezed once and Sabsab called out "Bless you!" and I smiled at her. Thanks Sab. Although I already said to myself alhamdulilah, I accept all blessings haha :)

But afterwards during KH, I got a blessing from someone I didn't really expect a blessing from. At least, the form of blessing la.

Me : *sneeze*
Sabrina : Bless y--
K*** : Bless you!

I was shocked. I didn't say anything, but I think a frown did form on my forehead. I mean, I can take a "bless you" from a Christian, but from a Muslim? That's their way, not ours. Isn't it better to say Alhamdulilah? Even though I already said it myself, but knowing that other Muslims find it important to say too would definitely make me feel better. Looks like some of us terikut-ikut budaya agama lain. You can wear what they wear, you can befriend them all you like, but you should never forget what you really are inside.

Or.. am I just too sensitive?


P.S, yet again no offense to Christians, I just.. don't find it right.


I told my parents this. My mom laughed. My dad said "Agaknye tulah maksud Satu Malaysia" but that's politics so.

the confession game.

So in a girl's school, what do you expect us to do when teachers aren't in?

Person A : OOH I know~ You guys study your heads off cuz you guys are in SBT school and you guys are such freakin nerds cuz you're in 2G~!

Err, no.

In fact, people can call me nerd, but I hate studying as much as the next person. Anyways, the answer lies within the story...

So one day in Bilik Masakan A, us so called nerds (okay maybe we are since we finished our work so fast) were so bored and decided to play Truth or Dare. the game became boring when we ran out of dares and everyone decided to go with truth (and they gave me the position of questionnaire, just cuz I make up good questions sometimes). So we decided to shorten the game, and spun the pencil for confessions.

Sabrina, Prii and Nadiah each confessed something very personal. I confessed something weird, funny and most probably was best kept to myself but neh-verh-maind... Lea confessed something she never even told Zaza, which I think was epic.

So I thought that was a very epic day where we created the Confession game.

Just the other day, we played this game again. It was sort of getting boring, but I guess you have to eat a hundred durians to find the best one. (is that the idiom? I can't remember haha) Xueh Wei confessed something really weird 0-0

Let me just tell you, it made me feel like I can never look at her the same again.

When you play the Confession game, you are automatically sworn to secrecy. you can't tell ANYTHING told in the game to ANYONE, no matter what. I know this wasn't exactly in the rules, but when it's personal, it's personal. If someone who plays the game doesnt get this unsaid rule, the other players could be victims. And you can't repeat a confession, even if you're playing with different people. So who's there is lucky la.

But this confession is WA-AYYY too funny to not tell.

Prii : *Spins pencil* (she's the pencil spinner, and she loves it) Santra, your turn.
Santra : ahh.. I don't have anything to confess la..
Divyia : never mind, just anything would do.
Santra : My hair is long.
Divyia : Something that isn't obvious~~ (MTT : like, maybe your hair has extensions or something)
Santra : Oh, maybe I should tell that thing I told Anesha and Ashwini yesterday!
Anesha : Ooh, that one! ahahaha
Others : tell la, tell la!
Santra : Oh my God, it's so embarrassing !!
Divyia : Just tell..
Santra : Okay.. *takes deep breath* ahahaha it's so embarrassing
Me : *roll eyes*
Prii : Just tell already, oh my God!!
Ashwini : just tell Santra, it's not that embarrassing..
Santra : okay, okay.. ... ..
Divyia : SANTRA!
Santra : SORRY! Okay, so yesterday, I went to the toilet...
MTT : *all these guesses are coming to my head, which involves period problems or something like that*
Santra : ... and I saw, I wore my underwear terbalik!!
Everyone : ...
Me :... AHAHA WTH?
Divyia : ahahahaha
Xueh Wei : what? are you laughing cuz..?
Divyia : yea I'm laughing cuz it took such a long time to tell... ahahaha...
Xueh Wei : ahahahahaha...
Prii : that was lame, Santra.
Santra : But it was so embarrassing!!

I wanted to ask terbalik as in inside out, or terbalik front to back, back to front? But I guess it wasn't the right timing.


missing someone makes me weak.

I'm sorry if you're annoyed. I've been trying to ignore it, I tell you, I have. But today, I broke. I'm totally not in the mood for anything.

I miss you.

I tried to ignore it, really I did, I was trying to make the best out of today. Nothing seemed to work, though. Until the end of the school day and I still can't help but miss you, I gave up and just told Anesha - I miss someone. so much.

I mean, it's not like I've never went a day with missing someone, I've been through longer times. But today, the feeling seems a lot more pressured. and THANK YOU GOD for making me feel all this weird stuff three days before exams. Sigh.

But someone did cheer me up a bit just now - my mom. Just a few words & hugs and I thought, well, at least my mom's still around to support me and give me a warm hug, even if that person isn't.

But in the end of the day, I'm still awful sad. I guess it's cuz in the end, I still can't see you, no matter what happens.


Naah that'll give out who this person is. The clue's too big ;P


Monday, October 18, 2010

guess what.

firstly, I got 15 followers on DA :3 SO WHAT IF MY TUMBLR SUCKS, at least my art's good >w< but obviously, it can't live up to Hana's MILLIONS of followers T_T most probably cuz she's started like, two years ago. and her chibis are REALLYY good. and she takes requests all the time, so go figure.

secondly, I got my LAST DOSE of my cervical cancer jab today. yayy. I forgot how it feels like, really. it's been months. Sabsab vomited. I was worried, but Lea kinda relaxed me a bit, saying some people get nauseous from stuff like that. later when she got back to her normal, cheerful self I thought I was kinda silly to worry.

lastly, I have a record on writing to Prii! >w< she says that everyone reads it, so :D the first one was kinda lame, but she (tried her best to say it sincerely) convinced me that it's nice and she wants it in her book. but then I wrote a smaller note, something more meaningful then she's like "THIS i want in my book." and I'm like, so you were lying just now? =3= although I kinda know the answer to that.


Friday, October 15, 2010

fleas in japan.

So I've been thinking of what to blog about lately. I know what Laila means when she meant she missed me posting long posts with more than ten paragraphs. it was back then when I dragged on about what happened that day. meh. i don't think people would actually read those posts so I stopped it.

anyways. last night I was lying down, thinking of something funny that happened, that just shows life happens, we can do nothing bout it. And I remembered something that happened in Japanese class. can't believe I forgot bout it.

so last Thursday, we had Japanese after school as usual. This time we didn't combine. Chong sensei's around. So I sat at my usual place, in between the loud and obnoxious people in front, and the quiet, smarter ones at the back. A lil terbalik, but it's the truth. So anyways. I was sitting alone, just listening and trying to absorb as much as I can. we were learning V kute/de, V masu (it's okay if you don't understand.)

so as usual, Yee sensei was showing us slide shows and asking us to form the sentence. suddenly, before she clicks the next slide, she was staring at me, and I just knew. I'm next.


I wanted to say "Which Elyna?" since if combined, there's Elena Siah so I can make THAT excuse. apparently it can't be accepted this time.

I tried to look ready, but I guess my face was showing how nervous I was. I hated answering questions.

"***.. kut.. kute.. " I started. Suddenly Yee sensei's phone started to ring. she answered it and spoke briefly. I used that time the best I can. I got the sentence right. now to pronounce it so that it doesn't sound like a broken record...

"Right, Elyna?" Yee sensei called. I looked up. Shit. "Er.. *** kut.. kutu... "

"KUTU?!" Nadhwah said it out loud. Kutu is apparently fleas. haha. I started laughing myself, covering my mouth. I wasn't the loud one in class, gotta stick to the image. Everyone who noticed this mistake started laughing, including Yee sensei herself. The back of the class stayed quiet, not really knowing what's happening.

"Elyna?" Yee sensei started again after everyone's stopped laughing.

"*** kute.. **.. masu..." I finished off, not very fluent. man. this is not good rep.

we also talked about Chong sensei. apparently she's just doing internship at this school, so next year she's not around anymore. I was actually happy about this, since my closer Japanese friends are at Chong sensei's class. But I doubt Chong sensei's class will be happy bout this. I think. they must be so used to Chong sensei's ways. I mean, if you ask us, we'd say that we prefer Yee sensei. at least, most of us. and if you ask them, they'd say Chong sensei. really, I think they're just the same. but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do (and here I mean Chong sensei leaving).

Sigh. Next year's gonna be really different, huh?


P.S, I asked my mom bout the SuJu concert. she said there's no possibility at all that she'll allow me to go to any concert at all.
"Concerts are for people who have extra time and extra money."

Man. I have extra time but zero money. sigh. bye bye, ever meeting Super Junior :'(


I need to Google that haha. I will not miss any fan meeting if I'm not going to the concert. but is that even possible? maybe you have to go to the concert to go to the fan meeting? Ugh I hate not knowing stuff.

donghae birthday celebration.

keehee :33


  • He loves children and puppies & hope to be a father as soon as possible.
  • He is cute when you see his silly side.
  • He loves every member of Super Junior and takes good care of them. When his hyung (older brother/male) is in an upset mood, he will cook noodles for them.
  • He will always remember his hyung’s birthdays. He doesn’t manage a Cyworld often, but when it’s a friend’s birthday, he would post pictures and a message on his Cyworld.
  • He often wears a hat or a beanie.
  • When he was still in the group O-Kay, EunHyuk and Junsu jokingly told him that he is officially a celebrity and his life/himself will change. Once he heard of that, he walked away quietly. They found him in the toilet crying and slamming the wall “I WILL NOT CHANGE!”
  • He often cried when he was on the phone with his parents. He is now trying hard to hold back his tears.
  • When he received his first place award for the first time, he said, “Father, I hope you’re healthy.”
  • Although he once said he doesn’t like to be too close (as in body contact) with someone, we can obviously see that he loves hugging.    
  • When he is with EunHyuk, he is very playful like a puppy. They are the best of friends.
  • He likes it when others call him a prince.
  • He saves his money in drinking cans.
  • He loves to reply fan’s messages. (when will I get lucky? :P)
  • He hates pink because SungMin’s cupboard is just opposite his bed & full of PINKY stuff. (SungMin loves pink)
  • Donghae used to reside on the 4th story of a small apartment. Everyday after school, he would press the bell of his neighbor’s house (1st story) and run away, until he got caught once.
  • He often forgets his hat, cell phone or similar items. He would look high and low for his hat, when he already wore it. Once he was chatting with another member on the phone and said: “I forgotten my phone, I’m going to go up and take it.”
  • He’s a crybaby, soft-hearted and thinks a lot (omg like me! :D I mean, the thinks a lot part, that is ;P)   
  • The best place he likes to keep his savings in, is the water dispenser bottle
  • He’ll turn into a beast if he’s on stage performing U. when he had eyes contact with the members, they’ll think that his stares is so not human.
  • Donghae always wears a silver bracelet on his wrist, it was given to him by his mother so he never takes it off.
  • If he has a girlfriend, he’ll like to give her a tour around his hometown, Mokpo, and let her know the place he grew up in.
  • When Kibum first came to Korea, Donghae’s the 1st person to hug him and welcome him.
  • When he was small, he played games with his friend that needed them to be divided in groups. Whichever group that he is in, will always lose in the game.      
  • He once promised his father that under any circumstances, he will not drink alcohol.
  • No matter how much he eats, he will not gain fat. Whenever he feels like he had gain a bit of weight, he’ll exercise. And the first place to slim down is his face.
  • He likes the feeling of being protected, being cared for. & because he’ll feel lonely easily, he never eats alone. He needs to have someone to eat with him.
  • Since he hates to eat alone, Donghae often sits in other members’ to wait for them to be done working so he can go eat with them.    
  • Donghae is very affectionate so his methods of waking up the other members are to either pad their butts or go hug them out of bed.
  • Donghae cares for his Dongsaengs very much, when KyuHyun was in the hospital, Donghae was the one that visited him the most.
there's so much more! x)



going to super show.


Getting ready:

(Heechul so cute xD)
Driving to the show:

Make it to the venue:

(I fckin love that expression)
Start a conversation with other fans:

(yeeheehee I'd be so tickled)
Realize they’re just as awesome as you are:

(epic xD)
See some kid with the same shirt as you:

(Siwon:*chompchompchomp* Donghae: ZOMG A SHARK THAT'S SO AWESOME)
Over hear the band sluts:

(I love this expression too xD)
Finally get inside the venue:

(if only i could do that.)
Super Junior starts to play:

(oh yeah :D)
They play your favorite song:

(ahahaha look at his face xD)
They play a sad song:

Super Junior does something sexy:

They play the last song of the night:

(blink.blink. i don't want this to ever end.)
You drive home and reflect on the awesomeness that just happened:

(fishy is so cute. i love you fishy. <3)

Anyways. harapan jerla nak gi SS4. I'd still ask my mom though. work out my allowances. do more chores. add a bit of this year's raya money (i still have 100 bucks! :3) then if I still can't go (mothers. plus, PMR next year! :( ) then me and Ika got this brilliant plan >:)
it involves the airport and a video camera.


waiting for the end - linkin park.

This is not the end
This is not the beginning

Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something emptys within em

We say yeah
With fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there

Cuz we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it forget it
Let it all disappear

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It’s out of my control

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It’s hard to let you go

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last
I wish it wasn’t so

What was left when that fire was gone
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it’s like moving on

And I don’t even know what kind of things I said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
Picking up those pieces now where to begin
The hardest part of ending is starting again

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

This is not the end
This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something emptys within em

We say yeah
With fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there
Cuz we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it forget it
Let it all disappear

emo post for laila.

since laila asked me to.


sometimes we wonder who really are our friends. they're there at one moment, and the next they're gone. you wonder what you have to do to make them stay, cuz without them you can't smile.

you look around and you see other people talking to their friends, laughing. and you look around you and you don't see the people that you thought would always be there for you.

mom said it's okay. we have to be independent sometimes.
but I feel sad.


Thursday, October 14, 2010


i guess i should wait for 12 am but WHY NOT. it's 12 am at Seoul :)

you're 24 heehee x))



there are more important things than fangirling.
and that is.. wishing a friend happy birthday.

You're one of the weirdest friends I've ever had.
But yet you're still cool!! x)
Smoga panjang umur and murah rezeki :)
Know that I care :)
And see you at school! :D
(haha lol i have nothing to say)

and Sabsab owes me that one bite of your burger. i will remember forever.


Friday, October 8, 2010

fish, fish jr. and fishy

there's so many "firsts" in life. this time, it's the first time I went to school as a form 2, without juniors.

what wonders.

I don't really feel the lost of the form 1's, since I'm not really close to many form 1's, mostly just Sammie. but it was okay. i guess there wasn't "the attack of the juniors". but instead, there were "the attack of the seniors". =3= people just love attacking us form 2's.

apparently, my expectations of having the canteen all to ourselves (and maybe the form 3's) were totally ruined when the form 4's had recess with us. I was totally lost. I recessed somewhere with Ain. Today, I just quickly ate and went to do something more important.

anyways. The class wasn't amazing neither. although I found the perfect place where I got the taste of the fan, I really preferred my own class. (Anesha just said that we usually get the fan in our own class too, but who cares! the usual problem in classes is getting the fan.)

we didn't even clean the class yesterday. we were busy acting out what we would think of the future in English. haha.

after school, I had Japanese. During lunch we discussed... ANIME! :) and we saw a cat! :) on the way to class, we saw the cat again (it ran away, Eva scared it :O) and held it captive >:) we called it Fish Jr. according to Yen Fern, the cat last year was called Fish, and apparently this year the cat's gone :( so now we got Fish Jr.! :D (also, I remember Donghae's Fishy x)) )

Eva brought it into class (yes, UPSTAIRS.) Qian Rui and Chloe got FREAKED. but Sabsab asked Eva to put it on her table. seeing Qian Rui got so freaked, (and some 2H-ers being very unsporting :( ) we got it out of the class. we saw teacher coming up, so we hurriedly (and sneakily) got it back downstairs. we don't want it running around the second floor.

after Jap class, we went to the pond and started naming the terrapins. The brown one was Coconut, the bigger green one is Cucumber and the smaller one is cabbage. I protested cuz I thought the name Cucumber was too small for the terrapin, but Iman said it's okay.

Me : I would like to see a cucumber that huge.
Iman : O.O ... I will grow one for you.

Aww :')
although knowing Iman I don't think it wasn't supposed to be an aww moment.


Wednesday, October 6, 2010

my talking thoughts,

have any one of you read "Liberty Belle" series by Amber Deckers? I've only read the first one, "I Love You, Goodbye" and the only reason I did was because the cover was pretty and Decker's "Ella Mental" series was one of my favourites when I was younger. but I've grown up to find better series than that. still, I was intrigued to know what type of book Decker had written this time.

yet not another one for the impatient. the starting was kinda boring, and I think I was pissing Thivyaa off cuz I read the book too slow. and I finished it on Saturday. =__= Leave it to me to finish a book at the beginning of holidays.

anyways, the book's about this girl who started getting "Thinking Thoughts" after her parent's divorce and her loneliness began. so the first time I read that, I was like, whoa, I can totally relate, I have Mind Blogging. but recently I've developed my own Talking Thoughts. or they've been there all the time, I dunno. I guess I've always called them conscious but maybe conscious isn't supposed to actually talk?

like lunch the other day, I just woke up from a nice nap. you know how people are after naps. and when mom finished and I haven't, she started giving me instructions.

mom: Na, lepas ni basuh pinggan tau?
my talking thoughts (MTT) : I would've done so without you asking me to.
mom : ni nasi ngan mi smalam pun buang gak...
mom : lepas tu angkat baju.
mom : Na??
me : ye mak...

it's like, I'll never actually say such things to my mom, but cuz I was in such mood, and was eating (at least trying to), and I hate getting instructions from mom, my mind just erupts.

and lately my Talking Thoughts have been having a very English slang. maybe cuz I've watch too much Britain's Next Top Model.

me (doing maths homework) : hmm.. area of a circle equals to..
MTT : pai sqwearr ar tew..
me : O.O ??? what am I hearing? am I turning Brit?

and mind you, while typing all this my mind is saying it all out loud in a very Brit slang.

Dear MTT,
Stop with the Brit slang. And be nicer to mom. Thanks.
Loves, Elyna.


Tuesday, October 5, 2010

rain, rain, go away.

mind you, this post was written offline on 24th September! haha.


The previous week has been very bad for me. Although there were some specialties, all the bad stuff really highlighted the week. And it all starts with rain.
This started last Wednesday, when unluckily, the heavy rain (which I didn’t think was THAT heavy) struck my wireless (which I wasn’t even using!) so that ruined it all.

Other bad things that happened included heartbreaks and many thinking. Yes, thinking. It frustrates me, but I can’t control myself to do it – think. About a lot of stuff.

So this Friday was Bakmal’s birthday, so we decided to celebrate it. We were planning to go to one of our favourites, Simply Fusion in Jaya One. But apparently, it closed. So we rounded the whole Jaya One to check out if there’s anything else we could eat there, but apparently it was full with most-probably-non-halal restaurants. Although some attracted me (Kimchi Haru – Korean cuisine, who DOESN’T want to eat what Donghae eats? And Mai Ramen - what is it that Eva loves so much bout ramen? I’ve never even tasted it) the rest of the family was searching for something more... normal.

So we decided to go to Uptown. I frowned at the thought. This is Bakmal’s birthday dinner for God’s sake, why are we going to a food centre for it? It was ridiculous. Okay maybe I’m a bit of an Uptown anti but still. It was inappropriate. I didn’t say anything though. As the youngest in the family (other than Umar) I didn’t have much right.

So just as we were about to go up the stairs to the crowd including Mamak’s usha-ing us to a seat closest to their stalls and people searching for a good place to sit, the rain started to fall. I HAD to be relieved. For the first time this week, rain finally made my day. Maybe it was a start of a fresh, good-lucked week.
So we decided to go to Secret Recipe, which was all the way on the other side of the road, but since we already parked, we decided to walk. I didn’t mind though. Exercise. Although obviously I didn’t wanna decline or we’re gonna have to drive somewhere else again. Not that my opinion really matters.

So after a long walk, we finally arrived. We found a seat and got a friendly waitress who can’t pronounce fancy names for the food and nodded on however my mom pronounces it. I got Mozzarella Baked Fish with Ice Blended Chocolate - yum. Bakmal got fried Dory with Lobster Sauce, Abang got Lamb Shank, Kak Ain got Thai Fried Rice (cheapest ha-ha), Ayah (surprisingly) got Aussie Beef with PEPSI. Yes, my dad, a BM lecturer at UPSI, Pepsi. Mom got Tom Yam, as usual.

The food was fulfilling. And since it was Bakmal’s birthday and the place specialized on it, we decided to get some cake. Well, not some, four slices. We usually get one or two. But we still managed to finish it! What a surprising night.
When we got home, I decided to get right back to school. No time for rest, I got Agama notes to do and clothes to iron and Yoko to finish colour (not necessary, I know, but still). But when I searched for my school clothes (new ones), I couldn’t find any. I asked my mom, and she told me she didn’t wash the clothes yesterday because it was raining in the morning.

I stared at the laundry basket. There’s a good-sized hill of clothes in it, and the clothes I threw in this afternoon, confident that I’ll wear fresh clothes tomorrow, were clearly visible under undergarments and other clothes. I didn’t wanna wear the same clothes three days straight – it’ll be embarrassing! I don’t wanna be that girl whom when you pass by her in the morning, you’ll smell a stench that’ll indicate she’s wearing yesterday’s clothes, and you’ll wanna avoid getting too close to her the whole day. It’ll be too embarrassing.

And yet again, the rain has failed me.