Wednesday, December 28, 2011

last post of 2011.

*800th post woohoo!*

well I won't be at home during New Years, so I'm guessing this will be my last post of 2011.

so the year had been quite full. in the beginning of the year my mind wasn't at PMR just yet. I even went to Singapore under Girl Guides. Then I entered pembarisan for Blue house, but then it probably didn't count (mainly cuz we didn't win) ? other than that I didn't have much on my mind. a lot of K-POPing going on with Hubble. 'homework' during recess turn into latest K-POP song discussion.

then when I got only 4A's for my mid-year exam, then I started to think seriously about PMR. the days after that felt so long. it all felt like a really long time. after trials, that's when I noticed how little time we had left until all of this will end - homework, tuition, being expected to study 24/7, my phone being taken away by dad... it will all end soon, and after that, we're all gonna be free.

the last days of PMR felt so hard. the pressure was definitely there, but everyone was trying to push it away with kind words and smiles. after that, we were so free, we practically didn't have anything to do but hang around. and I'm not kidding when I use the word lepak - that's all we did during the last days of school.

then came the school holidays. this time it felt really short, and literally I feel like I'm not prepared for school at all. must be because we don't even know what class we're gonna be in. I didn't buy my books yet. I didn't buy my tudung yet (I can still wear my uniform so we're saving on that this year). I don't even have new stationery. I bought a new pair of shoes though. I really wish the holidays would be longer. sigh.

so I've learned a few things this year. but they're not things that can be written in words. they're just small daily things, that I'll be using for small daily things in the future. literally too lazy to think right now. omg how am I supposed to survive form 4 if I'm lazy even to think. what type of person am I. 

well I can easily say I didn't fail 2011. it wasn't a bad year. it wasn't terrific neither. never will I think back and say, oh, 2011 was such a special year for me. 2010 was though. CNBLUE was born. And I fell for them.

special things that happened in 2011:

  • Haris Daniel, my second nephew was born on 11/11/11 :3
  • I got straight A's for PMR. 
  • I bought my first official CNBLUE merchandise - their ZEPP tour DVD. 
  • the first time I bought items online.
  • Hubble was born.
  • I gain 20 followers in a month. 97 followers? I'm proud of myself :') it might not be a hundred or a thousand like what most people would want, but I have a feeling people are starting to 'see' me now.
  • I found a fandom I know I'd stick to. and, ya know, I'm still a Shawol at heart, alongside being a Boice and BANA. I don't think I was ever a real ELF.
  • we took down Astro and decided to go for the minority life - with UniFi.
  • Japan's tsunami attack, that was sad, I dunno if it's special but it was epic-ly terrifying though. imagine all our favourite mangaka's dying Q_Q well thankfully not all though. heh. but a lot of people died so.

Things I need to do in 2012:

  • go for camps. because of PMR I didn't go any camp this year, except for the Singapore trip.
  • participate in musical events with choir. yet again, I didn't this year with PGL because of PMR. I went to see it though :) was my last request from mom.
  • practice piano more often. like, every weekday. and pretend music homework is the same as school homework. put it in the same stack. they're the same in priority. Piano is an extra subject that I'm taking for SPM. -convinced-
  • concentrate on Japanese. I need to ace the exam, not pass. Japanese is also an extra subject for SPM. -literally though this time-
  • not join any sports club. what's the use of joining if I don't go for practice? clubs are Ranger Puteri, choir and Japanese (language club). then go to all club meetings lol.
  • buy CNBLUE albums online. no seriously I have to do this. 
  • go online once in two days. I don't want to go online too often, but I don't want to miss out on the fun neither.
  • make a timetable.
  • exercise (since I won't be joining a sports club T T)
  • write and draw more often :D

what I don't have to do in 2012:

  • Tumblr everyday. just Tumblr once a week will do. people don't unfollow because they didn't blog in a week. they unfollow because they haven't blogged in a year. 
  • have a crush (again). 
  • do extra things like edit videos and make covers. I mean seriously who has the time for all that when you have other things to worry about. sorry. no offence. 
  • go for recess. I need to save money. just have a big breakfast and I'll be fine. 
  • use the computers at school. membazir duit je.

I don't know if that's all. I mean, who knows right? -thinking too much, again-

so, thank you everyone who had made my year <3 I dunno what to write anymore. what do people write on end-of-year posts anyway? maybe it's just cuz it's not the end of the year yet so I don't really feel anything. it's sad. but what can I do?
oh I know. I can showcase how uncaring I am about the end of the year by posting this.

muahahaha. you shall all die of Minhyuk's sexiness.

three things.

one - this song. is. epic. can't get it out of my head :))

please please please please if you have time please listen to this song.. cuz I want someone else to agree that this song is epic-ly addictive XDD
and I want someone to sing with me when I get to school *__*

two. troll-anon-ing :)

at Hanis's Tumblr XDD it was so funny, really. kesian gak at times, but I think she deserves it :P I'm the anon ever since I asked 'what does your URL mean?' hehe :)

three. mom got cupcakes with my face on it.

I was soooo embarrassed. there's a story behind it, really. mom was asking the baker to make samples, so she asked for my picture (cuz she was too excited about my results, I think) so this is what happened. cupcakes.. with my face clearly printed in edible ink on it.
It was for a kenduri we're gonna have on January, and no, they won't be giving this out. mom wanted to make them for Umar and Haris :3 this is just for sample.

I'm quite happy with how I look, actually. Thank God they edited it before they printed. the one where I'm wearing a blue tudung, my lips were pale because I was in tuition and it was really cold. then the other one I had a zit on the bridge of my nose, but that was edited out too. heh.
so, who wants Lynn cupcakes? :D


Tuesday, December 27, 2011

pulling on my heartstrings.

I've been crying to Heartstrings a lot recently. I thought Khairun said she felt this drama was boring. oh well. I really like it though. Yonghwa and Shinhye are such a natural at acting with each other. I still wish Yonghwa will act alongside someone else one day, though.

then I remembered this FMV I really really liked that made me feel like watching HS in the first place :

I must've posted this everywhere now but I still like it. the more I watch it, the more I understand the lyrics and the video. well I've been searching for more FMV's, and there were so many out there. not many were as good as this one, but there was one that was better :

I really really like this one. I feel like it really suits Gyoowon. I almost cried in the end.

but of course, there were other good ones too:

These three had a sense of humour in it, which is what I like about Kdramas - they're not just plain drama, Indonesians can do that (sense the racism. gomenasai.) but they have a good sense of humour too :)
the last one was special cuz I felt like it was a video against Lee Shin? I've had times when I really hated Lee Shin so I was satisfied muahaha.

and the last one - I don't really like it in particular cuz it's nothing special really, but Minhyuk is so cute I just had to post it...

p.s, spoiler, I cried when Gyoowon sang I Will Forget You. it was the first Korean song that Jonghyun wrote for an album. it was in BlueTory and Jonghyun sang it. I had always loved it, even before I was a Boice, but I never really knew the meaning. it made me cry. I'm sure I wouldn't have cried if I just searched the trans though, so thank you Shinhye.

I'm so so sorry but one more! This one is good too :) its sort of how I'd like Lee Shin to actually feel. heh. and the end of the video is where I'm at now, Ep7 :3 If I stay up to watch another episode mom will literally kill me @__@
-7 videos in total.. gotta be a post record-


which one do you own?

I can feel myself blushing.

that annoying moment when you're about to fangirl and suddenly everyone is trolling around.

it would be less awkward if Umar wasn't sitting on my lap and saying 'monster, monster! ma, ma, monster la!' every time he sees CNBLUE and moving around all the time, making me really uncomfortable.

this would turn out a lot different if it wasn't winter at Korea right now and they had bodies like 2PM. 
CNBLUE is awkward sexy.

p.s, I think Minhyuk has the best body I almost had a nosebleed when I saw the picture. 
why can't everyone just wear a jacket like Yonghwa really?! and Jonghyun had the least clothing on... I feel like crying

Monday, December 26, 2011

my K-POP bucketlist.

there's so many, really, that I can relate to. I'm gonna post everything anyway #spam

(now it includes Jonghyun so yea :) )

I just submitted something. will update when it's up, if it's up :)

(so many I'm too lazy to put as ori size like I usually do lol. so the ones in ori size is what I prioritize most.)

Sunday, December 25, 2011

can't find a time when I don't get a headache using the laptop.

Amber's voice :')

I like the lyrics of this song. even though I don't celebrate, I totally agree that one day everyone would be standing hand-in-hand together in peace, smiling, no matter what your religion or race of beliefs. everyone would have put their guns down and apologized and admitted wrong, and the wronged will forgive them for all everyone wants it just to live in harmony.


Thursday, December 22, 2011

deleted another post for this.

I finally cried sincerely watching this drama.
I mean, I've felt sad and disappointed before, but seeing Yonghwa Shinwoo so sad, crying that the girl he likes will never like him the same way... it's just depressing.
...I truly am biased, aren't I?

Well I watched one of the movie that Jonghyun recommended with mom and dad, Ima, Ai Ni Yukimasu. I actually memorized that. (kata nak improve Jap, have to put in a lil effort into these little things..)

it was a slow Japanese movie, like most Japanese movies are. it's really sweet and has cute humour to it. the plot was nice too. easy to understand. not that complicated, but not too simple. although the guy actor was a little awkward but I guess it suited the character he was acting.

now the part where I was supposed to cry.
I mean, from the Tumblr post I read (and posted here) Jonghyun probably cried to this movie too. my mom started crying when the kid cried, but I was just waiting for a scene for me to cry to. there was a part where I teared up a bit, but usually if I sincerely cry I'd sob a little. I really didn't find a scene for this.

am I that heartless? nanti bila dah kahwin tengok movie sedih dengan husband he would be crying away and I'll sit here and yawn. (note: i didn't necessarily say Jonghyun. I mean he's a Busan guy, if he was crying and his wife wasn't he would be embarrassed and quickly wipe away his tears. lol the imagination of a 15 year old.)
I hope I will cry more in the future. I mean, when it's appropriate.


P.S, if the movie wasn't too slow then Kimio, the song Jonghyun made inspired by this movie, would've been the perfect OST.

We aim even more towards the top and keep running
Until that day comes, just about anything is fine
We both laughed that day, Even the truth of happiness
I request you you, A feeling I grew
Though even now it is irrepressible and overflowing
I am now going to be with you.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

syukur Alhamdulilah kepada yang Maha Esa kerana memberi ku kejayaan.

the atmosphere at school this morning was tense. girls were chattering off their stress, including me myself. when I walked into the school gates I was greeted first with Ain's hug, followed by Sya, then Ika. then I came forward to Shahira to give her a hug. I haven't heard from her for awhile, but then she's that type of person.

everyone was talking about how they were stressing out this morning. some cried in the morning when they woke up. some cried because their dad said 'it's okay, I'll still love you no matter what'. the worst I got was feeling a little nauseous when we neared the school. when I salamed my dad this morning and asked for his prayers, he just said 'Ayah dah doa dah'. 

we entered the hall after Datin Mary opened the doors. she announced that the results are already here, but they'll give it out once Datin Nurul has come back from Shah Alam from an emergency meeting. it's either really good news, or really bad news. so the gang stuck together, talking about 'competitors' in the family. I only have one cousin from Johor, Ikin. I'm sure the Johor people hardly know I took PMR this year. I don't mind though, even if my friends have aunties calling in asking if we got our results yet, showing how much they cared.

Ain was texting with Bazil. he got 5A's. more news from Samad, Arshad, the guy who likes Ain got 5A's too, and Vie, the most popular girl in Samad, and also back in SSP got straight A's. soon, we heard a loud buzz at the class tables, and later screaming. turns out we had to line up and pick up our results. I was praying so hard when I got into line. but then none of the students from my class got their results yet. instead, we each got an envelope of money - our class funds. we had extra so it was divided among us, each got RM18. 

then Datin Mary made another announcement - that they'll announce the students who got 8A's and give their slips on stage. I was hugging Xueh Wei's arm by then. by the time 'Noor Aziemah' was called out my heart was beating so fast. here it goes. after this. if they skip my name, I didn't get straight A's. 



'Nur Elyna bt. Mahzan...'

I slipped through the many people blocking my path, then when I noticed I missed the stairs I jumped from the front. 
'Nur Iman?' a teacher asked. 
'uh, no, Nur Elyna..' the pointed my way to Datin Nurul, all staring at me like I was a crazy monkey who preferred jumping around than using the stairs.
Datin mentioned the jump, but all I was worried about was my slip. smiling happily, I took the piece of paper - straight A's. 

as I walked towards the stairs down, my mom called out 'ELYNA!!!' at first it was embarrassing, but later when she was hugging me, eyes teary, I realized why she was so proud of me - I was her first child who got straight A's for PMR. Abang didn't take it, cuz he was at US, and Bakmal got 5As. soon my eyes got wet too. I'm proud of myself - I made mom happy.

after that, everything was a blur - picture taking, calling people, hugging everyone no matter what their result. Hubble's average was 6.7, which is 7 la. it's not bad. not bad at all :) I was so proud of Sya. I think she cried the most. she said she wanted straight A's back when we were studying for trials. she said she had to make her mom proud - her first child got straight A's for PMR. but I'm sure her mom was just as proud when she got 7A's. 

on the way home, mom was probably so proud, she told me to call her best friend to tell her my results. then when she came home she told me Aunty Anne said congrats. she must've told her too. I hope she doesn't tell anyone else. I hope that's the two closest friends she has that she can trust sincerely. Abang gave me a gift too - chores. no seriously, he's paying 30 bucks to sweep, mop, vaccum, lipat baju and clean the toilet. although I'm not big on cleaning his bathroom, but 30 bucks is a whole lot! knowing that he's short on money himself, I'm happy with his 'gift' :) 

I didn't mention it, really I didn't, but mom asked what she promised if I got straight A's, and she recalled herself it was a trip to Korea. I told her it was okay, but Abang was all 'Belikan drumstick yang diorang pakai kat tokong tu! buat souvenir!" mom was already facepalm-ing. I didn't say anything, seriously! kalau ada rezeki boleh lah, bawak the whole family. but just the thought of it can make me smile ear to ear. 
Abang : Korea tengah perang skarang..

later I went online and I was overwhelmed when both Asyraf and Harith started a chat with me ><" I mean Harith I understand, we tight lyk dat but Asyraf? I thought he didn't have any interest me. but then he probably just wanted to know how I did. he got 5A's.

Nuryn was right. she said if she was a KL guy from a normal KL school she wouldn't want to date a Sri Amanian cuz we'd probably be too smart for them. speaking of Nuryn, she got straight A's too :') my deskmate. so proud of her. SRI AMAN KICKS GUYS ASSES. BEST IN SELANGOR, YO! WOOTS :D we didn't beat last year's record though - more than half straight A's. but I'm still proud of our batch. we're so awesome :)

right now I'm just being thankful to everyone who gave me the strength to arrive here, at this state of happiness.
Hubble and the gang (means additional Ili and Shahira) who stayed back to study together,
the Andrew Choo gang who made me laugh in classes,
Asyraf who made me want to show him what I'm made of (seriously crushes make me feel like I should be better, so I'm thankful to them, even Pumpkin.)
my parents who constantly and annoyingly remind me to study 24/7. I'm happy they did that now. even if it's annoying.
Comel, who was there when I need a warm furry thing to hug.
my super smart classmates for revising with me at last minute.
Korean guys, I love you all, especially my so-called-husband Lee Jonghyun and also my ex-boyfriend Lee Junghwan a.k.a. Sandeul. they gave me the strength to continue reading even though I was too lazy. my thoughts back then was 'Sandeul and Jonghyun would be so proud that their fan is a straight A student.'
my friends, my siblings... I LOVE ALL OF YOU! :') 

and mostly, I'd like to thank Allah SWT for giving me the strength to study, and for blessing all my hard work. 
Please forgive all my sins and the sins of all I care for, and the sins of the all Muslims out there. 
I am so thankful for your help.


on a side note,

—I watch a lot of dramas and films, I express the feelings of the characters as if I’m one those characters.
—Sometimes films and dramas inspire me to write. And as for playing my guitar, songs come in mind spontaneously.
—I often compose the song inspired by movies and dramas. Watching video is my habit when I write a song. I make a song by guitar too.
Lee JongHyun is certified as an emotional J-drama addict
He admitted that he cried when he watched dramas and movies
Lee JongHyun may look tough and masculine but he has a soft heart.. <3

The post included dramas that he watched and loved, so I downloaded all the torrents lol. except for Pride. it has something to do with baseball therefore I'm not really interested. sorry hubby, but we can't have all the same interests ^^"

I watched ‘Bara No Nai Hanaya (Flower Shop Without Roses)’, ‘Sekai no Chushinde Ai wo Sakebu (Crying out Love, In the Centre of the World) ’. I chose a little bit wistful ones and watch. I always watch Japanese dramas and films when I compose. I think the music or albums are one of those stories.
source B-Pass Magazine

JongHyun comment about “Rain Of Blessing”:
I was inspired when I saw the film of “Sekai no Chushin de, Ai wo Sakebu (Crying Out Love, In The Centre of the World)” and I used this single to resemble as a drama or a film. I was well aware of “Kisho Tenketsu (起承転結 / Introduction, Development, Turn and Conclusion)”, so I composed that (kisho tenketsu) to float towards ending.”
source: Arena 37C

JongHyun Favourite Drama(s):
My Boss, My Hero” and “Bara no Nai Hana Ya (Flower Shop without A Rose)
source: Ray Magazine

Since I was at junior high school, I’ve always listened to the Japanese music like BUMP OF CHIKEN and flumpool. Actually, I like Japanese dramas like ‘Pride’ as well.
Source: Myojo Magazine

Songs that  are composed by me are similar to jpop style. Actually, most of them are inspired by Japanese dramas and movies, for example, the  drama “Ima, Ai ni Yukimasu” and “Sunao ni Narenakute”.
Source: Kboom July
Ima, Ai Ni Yukimasu movie title is the last lyric of Kimio)

so yea. heh.

Monday, December 19, 2011

truthfully, i don't want to blog.

Why is he so gorgeous? ;_;


I deleted an old post to make this. I have two more posts after this, one is for PMR and the other is for 2012 - my 800th post. so I'm sorry if I haven't updated enough, or my updates are so short it doesn't count, or you can't relate to my updates therefore not entertained, but this is my reason. I'm saving my 800th post. lol.

so firstly I shall share with you what I shared with my Tumblr followers. ever since Yen Fern posted that thing on how k-dramas shouldn't be called dramas, I've been thinking about watching dramas. I am definitely not the drama type, who would patiently wait every week for the new episode and totally feel for the characters. but since our trial time for HyppTV had reached it's limit of 30 days, we barely watch TV anymore. we get roughly five minutes of preview every hour or so, and that is not very entertaining.

Mom had been so into Prison Break lately, she's been watching at least three episodes each day and she's at season 4 now. truthfully, Prison Break is much more dramatic then any Korean drama there is. every time they find a way to get away, somehow there must be something in their way. it just kills me. plus the amount of blood and killing... conversations between Prison Break followers would be "Hey is that guy dead yet" "no no he's still on the run. the other guy's dead though." "seriously? i was rooting for him!!"

so I decided to not sit next to mom every single time she's watching it, just sometimes when I'm really really bored. therefore to relief my boredom, I've decided to start downloading dramas :)

yes I don't watch online, because I'm that lazy. since we have UniFi, one of the fastest .. connector? i have no idea but yeah, Bakmal introduced us to torrent :) this is how I let my mom watch Hello Stranger and I watched Heaven's Postman. those are all on the external, but apparently dramas use bigger space, so knowing my dad has an unused hard drive that he put in his laptop (currently has 55GB free space *0*) I decided to keep it all there, until I get my own laptop (hurr).

therefore, I cannot watch my dramas when my mom is using ayah's laptop purposely instead of hers to watch Prison Break. which is why I'm here, on mom's laptop, talking to you guys about my drama plans. I am so lifeless.
see I didn't actually explain that much detail in my Tumblr. cuz well all those are kinda personal. so this is what I actually posted :

I'm currently watching You're Beautiful, because everyone says it's good and I should watch it. I finished downloading Heartstrings, now I'm downloading Jungle Fish 2. Then I'm gonna download Pasta
I'm not really big on dramas, practically the only drama I've watched and followed is Dream High. Now that I don't subscribe to the channel we usually watch it on, I'll probably be streaming Dream High 2 when it starts. Not sure yet. I'll wait forFlower Boy Ramyun Shop to end, then I'll download it.
Can you guys recommend me any good dramas you've been watching? TV has been boring recently, since the channels available now are so expensive to subscribe. So most of my family members are spending more time on their laptops. Once I get my own laptop, watching dramas would be so much easier!
Well this'll probably be the last post of the day, I have another seventeen episodes of Jang Geunseuk, Jung Yonghwa and Lee Hongki to watch.. oh yea and Park Shinhye too.

I even tagged like the actors I mentioned so that if someone was searching and would see my question they would respond but the only person who noticed was Hanis T_T I'm such a loner on Tumblr.

so yeah. although I asked that question, now that I think about it I've already planned to watch so much, why am I bothered to download some more right now?
but heck, if you guys have any good dramas just tell me. I'll download the torrent and watch it when I feel like it. which is probably never but whatever. mom finished watching her three episodes of Prison Break and told me to go to sleep at twelve. FML.


Sunday, December 18, 2011

i wish i was this smart.

When asked about her Hijab by Journalists and how it is not proportionate with her level of intellect and education, she replied:

“Man in the early times was almost naked, and as his intellect evolved he started wearing clothes. What I am today and what I’m wearing represents the highest level of thought and civilization that man has achieved, and is not regressive. It’s the removal of clothes again that is regressive back to ancient times.” 

Noble Laurette from Yemen, Tawakul Karman

christmas gift for xueh wei.

Idk if you're around I mean I haven't seen you online and you haven't updates your blog, but since you like Sungha Jung and I know you like thing song, you recomended it to me even before school ended so ^^

-I'm sorry my gifts are cheap guys T T but then you guys don't give me duit raya so :P-

ya know, I wonder why astro hitz doesn't play much videos from Malaysia. I mean, look at these two!

They put in so much effort, and not even local channels want to play their song!
you know, I might not have been one of those people who actually watches them, but I miss those days when astro Ria had like ten minutes to show Malaysian music videos and stuff. and even though back then they'd only show MV's by AF students but I bet now they'd have much more to show! and I'd definitely watch it ;)
sampai skarang kitorang dah takde Astro pun I'm still giving comments on the

p.s,will try to get you a gift, YenF ^^

Friday, December 16, 2011

from outside of Comic Fest '11.

We didn't get in. Not gonna say much, not that interesting when you couldn't even go in.
Okay maybe it was kinda interesting. lol.

My mom wanted to take a picture of this Batman so badly. lol.

Orochimaru T T 
unluckily, there was no Kakashi or Rock Lee cosplayers. 
if there was I would've fangirled already lol.

The 9th Hokage, right?? still not sure.
Bakmal mumbled his name but I didn't catch it.
(okay Eva said it's Naruto in the future - Hokage the 7th. lol I'm way far off.)

Vocaloid Miku!! :D definitely my fav pic, and fav cosplayer ;)

my least fav cosplayers, cuz they ruined Azumeow T_T 
Azusa looks older than the rest.

Tidus from Final Fantasy X! :D
I loved the game, couldn't finish it before our PS2 broke though :(

Eva's cosplay!
I seriously have no idea what she cosplayed as but throught the comments...

The only souvenir we got T T
Ayah probably took it off a trash can or something lol.

Hana!! :D was so excited when we saw her :)
should've taken a pic with her bro, he was Harry Potter >.>

there lol. -steals from FB-

L. easily said. one of the earlier photos taken so its kinda lame.

first one taken cuz it's Crocodile!! 
who wouldn't want to see the un-buffed version of Crocodile?? :D

otw (omg Blogger got it backward)


Planning to olan better for next year >.> saw so many cool stuff people bought! I want those things too!! (I wonder if they sold a keyblade -gasps-)
I saw Namine, but didn't take picture, and there was no Roxas :(

(kinda tired, sorry for short explanation, wasn't interesting anyway)